why am i not a blogger?

wahaahhahhaha why am i not a blogger why? why? why?

first of all.....i think its very obvious that i didnt blog for like ages d...since the last blog till now...hmmmmm....lets consider almost a year d? issit? help me see can? my maths nt so so only lol.....

then le....i suka suka like in hokkien said "bo su chuo" (means when there's nothing to do") baru i go blog something lo lol....wahahhahhaha

or......when i wanna go express my emotion here....(usually gila sot sot one...)

or......i only blog when i express my opinion la.....over sth la.....for example, if i say le life is meant to be determine by urself not because it happens it happens...no almost everything can be control by u? enough said...not enough...nvm just wait for my next blog lo lol...

or when i got something cool to blog bout.....but this lately hmmm....nth much lo

soo......sorry blogger(the website) that i am not a blogger (saying me self) wahhahaha....unless ah....kena deposit around few $$ k to me baru u can see me blog like i never blog before lo lol.....

life is fair, its all up to your own effort...

before i continue...i am practicing democratic freedom of speech...only a fool will not recognise it...

well first of all...this came to my mind when a lecturer (note tat: i do not hate him at all ..FULLSTOP its only for the sake of mutual benefits....) kept mentioning "life is not fair" all n over n over n over....n not only him said tat...Bill Gates said it too....

but....as we all know everyone is unique...n great minds comes from great diversities...

so...i do not agree with this statement that life is not fair...

ya...i knw it seems like karma never work....or why issit u're not a prince of a royal family ah...why are u not rich....why i x have the chance to further study overseas ah...why i x have a hot n pretty girlfriend ah..or hot boiling boyfriend...and etc.....

hence.....complain n complain n complain.....whining n on and on n on....thats all?

where's the effort? you just gonna be like...leave it unfortunate as it is? thats all?

allow me to provoke u!................why are u a L.O.S.E.R?

and why did i said that?

like the example i mentioned in facebook status...

ever consider US how they gain independence from British at tat time? what they are just a peasant? its not fair...to compare with their opponent a fully well trained soldier...yet highly equipped....n how did they defeat such a powerful country at that time? until they were corner n need to raise white flag near the shore? how could they possible defeat them? not to mention decades later...successfully defended their land when british came n attack again?

ok...then x mention bout US make it more regional....how bout u consider indonesia...how they gain their independence? from Holland? lay back n wait for them to give it in? no they all stand up n fight!

revolution 1911 in china

qing conquest over ming dynasty?

mahatma ghandi ways of gaining independence....

the way how albert einstein become the genius human kind we ever know although his education background is not fair at all!!

or perhaps stephen hawking...he is attack by a disease leaves him paralyze and for typical ppl like most us...we will felt hopeless and useless...but he still able to crack the secret of blackhole theory?

and many more events....that shows unfortunates become the great success!!

then what are the similarities? u notice from all d events i mentioned?

they all responsible!!!

for the US case...the peasant responsible to fight for their independence right...

for the indonesia...they too same as the US....take up the weapons and fight!

china...believe in democracy....so stand and support for their believe....

the Qing well....they are not as good as the luxurious Ming dynasty? how they win le? determination and efforts!!

same goes to him, mahatma ghandi

and then albert einstein and stephen hawking....if say life is not fair...and they take up this idea as well...that life is not fair...do you all physicist will be able to continue or expand the studies from these two great minds?

not only historical events....religious...

buddhism...if life is not fair...then why issit the concept of karma is there?

christian? david and the goliath? Jesus himself? the slaves of the egyptians freed by Moses?

Muslim...Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. when he was under hot pursuit by the pagans? for his teaching? several attempts of not making him as a leader until life is at stake? yet he became the Khalifah? and protect the holy city agaisnt the pagan?

does this ring a bell to u?

that life is fair only if u show an effort and responsibility to yourself?

don't u think ur own religion teaching oledi mentioned the responsibility in your own life?

oh i knw some females may say...so unfair male cant get pregnant...we need to endure this pain and all...but once the baby is born...who is the baby more attach to?

u think God would like this world to be not fair? if u speak of religion?

so what if u r poor...u think its god-will? if it is..x u think its a test that actually gives u motivation to achieve better than this?

my personal case...i wasn't that fucking rich when i was so young....as compare to those rich fellas....they have everything they got...they have internet...guiness book of world record...that and this book of facts...and all....yet at that time...my mind is far richer than theirs....why? and how? i watch discoverys and nat geo only tat time...i went to library every two days....i borrow my rich fren's guiness book...i x have text book at that time...yet i am the top of the class and the school....i x go tuition they all go....yet...my rich frens teach me...with what they learned....and now thanks to all my frens help and my own effort.....i am what i am now...

u see?

or shall i say its unfair....parents is not always around wit me when i was 14years old onwards...i live alone with my brother...and somehow we have trouble with ourselves...food mostly...and house chores.....but i x see this as a negative one...u knw why?

u see here....i am in UTAR...i am able to survive alone....i could only spend RM50 per week.......i know how to spend wise...i knw how to take care myself when i was injured n sick....i can manage my own lifestyle to proper ways.....

all in all thanks to my parents for giving us early training of living alone...so that i wont be crying because of homesick....

do u call this unfair?

no not at all.....it is unfair if u remains it without any turning points from u....

all u need is RESPONSIBILITY that's all....

so ya...i x believe that life is not fair...why not?

history, religion, philosopher, famous ppl, and me myself...oledi shows life is fair only if u determine to make it fair....n just....

so life is not fair when there is lack of responsibility....enough said!

till then!

remember...this is my own opinion in my effort to practice the freedom of speech thank you....if u get angry with this...i may suggest u to google for the term freedom of speech....

Ignorance is Strength

must be wondering why sometimes i tend to ignore frens with their problem?

its not tht i am very cruel, no empathy, dun understand ppl...n it goes on n on....

why i ignore it because i have my own reasons...

not because i dunwan to help anyone already nor i want to run away from taking responsibilities...

but because i found its the best way for them to solve their own problem...

certain people (i will not mention who...for P&C reasons) will only making their problems worse..once they have somebody to talk to...

or perhaps not getting worse, some cases they would actually create a new problem..(so creative wor?) lol...

n why do we need to continue "feeding" of those who only making their prob worse because u console them...

no...its not because i am bad in it...hello...i have years of experiences in this situations...

only after i have study n understand it...yes

it is best to ignore them with their problem...for their own benefit...

n guess what it really works...

it is like their behavior is not positively reinforce...they tend to "sien" with it n change for better....

i knw giving up on certain frens wit prob is not something acceptable especially for those in counseling field...cos it is not right to abandon ur client...

but wat if u can solve it in within weeks rather than months or years? better right? n since i am not earning my income from there also...or gain any benefit...

so wat they will hate me for this or felt disappointed but ask urself...don't u think u had improve a lot from this ignorance?

so sometimes it is best to ignore certain cases tht only becoming worse when u console them...

not to mention...for my own personal opinion....(not support by anything ah)

tht when one person is ignore with their problem...

he or she will indirectly applying Kubler Ross model to themselves...n yes it will be something they are unaware of...(even myself i agree with it)

ya it may seems like it only applies for something relevant to death...

no, trust me...in my personal experiences it actually applies on certain crisis n dilemmas...

how it applied?

ok we knw tat kubler ross model has this five stages

Denial--->Anger--->Bargaining--->Depress--->Acceptance

n wat if u apply to a crisis say...(touchwood ah) ur gf or bf dump u...for another person...

Denial. for those in long term relationship, of course u will not believe this thing will happen n u x accept it at all...so the person will tend on repetitive denying it, n thinks it can't be happening its not real its not true...this thing happen to tat person...n even he ever thought of getting married with him or her at the end....

Anger. of course when u found out wat are the causes, n reasons for this break up...u will get angry x control urself...felt like u wanna have revenge n all this la...some cases will go berserk or amok because of it....if not properly monitor, it will also end up murdering...so monitoring the person at this stage is very very important....(caution some may still stay at this stage for a long time, n a cue to move out from there is needed for him..)

Bargaining . Yes...after the anger and all this....the person will say "if only i could be better for her or him" or the person will go to the love one n begging for her or him to come back again... beg n beg like its never ending one...

Depress. n wat happen when the bargaining fails? depress mode is on!...depress the person it is...feeling helpless giving up n regret even more..for wt happened n sad sad....so at this stage...in order to move on....this is the point u step in briefly to comfort...i say comfort jus comfort...not console...because i assure u...the person in this situation with a little bit of support n comfort...he or she will move on to.....

Acceptance. after all this sad emotional rush on his or hers feelings...finally after he had enough of the depression...the person will end up accepting it as a fact...n giving up to go n fight back their love one again...some may forget the person forever..but le...some may even come back n talk like normal again....like it never happened before....

this my fren is the reason why i choose to ignore some of my frens with problem...n although it will talk longer than it sounds...but the thing is, it wil guarantee success...if careful monitor is involve...la....

so don't need to ask why...once more why i choose to ignore some of my frens problem...or not involving in it anymore...

till then frens....

caution: this is mostly for the means of sharing my opinion n practicing my FREEDOM OF SPEECH..not meant to SHOOT on anyone i knw....so pls remain silent! if u happen to disagree with me..cos it is my RIGHT n when comes to HUMAN RIGHTS! it calls for MUTUAL RESPECT (do i need to define it?) thank you for your understanding...enjoy reading ya...

*seriously...i getting more n more tired of writting this everytime write my own thoughtful article...thanks to CERTAIN STARTER...owh human n their conformity =="....*

thats all...god bless u with ur exams n assignments...

My delayed Happy Malaysia Day!

the last night at around this time....

as i went out for dinner, i saw something very interesting tht sparks my idea to blog

n wat exactly is the incident? well...

i saw a chinese mother with her child playing candles with two indian children (which happen to be the chinese mother's neighbour) n they all get along very well...very fun instead, i can hear laughter i can hear them talking bout it each other, yet the language they used by the indians was english n yet the boy speaks chinese to them...

i was wondering how could they actually communicate each other ? i wonder they understand each other? well it seems like they do...cos they were smiling to each other...

how wonderful it is le?

not only tat, in unrelated event, when i came back home from yumcha, i saw the same chinese mother n the indian mother were talking to each other...n they were like talking as if they are very good frens (gossiping and all those things la lol..housewives talk lol..)

n ya wats so special about it?

yes there is.....they actually comm each other in CANTONESE..yup i am serious in it..cos i pull my ear very long to confirm this...imagine that an indian actually spoke cantonese (fluent one) to her...n seems like not threaten at all....

what say you?

5 years old children, can get along very well..not even fight or stereotype among each other...

if a child can instinctively not being racist among each other...why not us?

why should we need to be racist or stereotyped among each other?

why need to go against each other? worth meh?

of course not...

be tolerate to each other...so wat we have different culture n belief...

but there is one thing for sure that we are all the SAME!

n that is...

WE ARE MALAYSIANS!

n this is something we should be proud of to have such a multicultural nation like us...ask u...

cos u never gonna enjoy such varieties of food thnks to different races in malaysia....

we have more festivals thanks to different cultures in malaysia....

so MALAYSIANS...learn wat tht young children did...n x be ashame of it...cos its something pride for u to do it...

so this i wrote in conjunction of my delayed HAPPY MALAYSIA DAY!!

"kamu orang sarawak tak pandai baca ke?"

yes...today is a bad day for me...n wat has it got to do with this statement above?

not that i am trying to be negative or trying to cause chaos aka calamity in malaysia but somehow i wish to wonder wats going on in this human society...

at first i was hoping for some help or aid for my mistake (yes i admit it is my mistake that i didn't read properly the TERMS AND CONDITION as stated in the application form.. or is it not mine at all? hmmm....)

nvm...tat will be settled...

the main thing here is this statement which makes me quite disappointed....

i will not mention who is involve cos its for the means of their identity protection...

but a person...mentioned this...while i am dealing with my complications...

"kamu orang sarawak tak pandai baca ke?"

i was shocked n disappointed when i heard such thing mentioned by him....and many more....

somemore i presented my IC saying i am Malaysian...but then...he said "dia tipu mungkin, itu pun juga palsu"....

woah...tat's too much...but for the sake of mutual avoidance on conflict i remained silent...

luckily another person came in n took it over from him...(he kept being so obnoxious angry only)

eventually things settled...(not exactly i had to get down to putrajaya for this matter) lol....which i will go, don't worry.....

but the question here is this, it's already 47 years oledi....but why there's still got this old-fashioned stereotyping happened here....

whats going here? i'm not sure....

i thought its something to be "welcome n appreciate" after 47 years oledi....

or issit me the only one who experience this situation or someone else also....

i'm not sure...

i am not trying to shoot or try to drive ppl around me into chaos or danger...

i wonder do they even knw that sarawak has the highest percentage of public exam passes? (tat is so far i knw when i am still in secondary) n yet...said tat we, orang sarawak knw how to read or not....

haiz...i am deeply disappointed....

any suggestion here? any idea? cos we are proud to be malaysian...but such stereotyping is not helpin at all.....

it has nothing got to do...whether the one malaysia concept is working or not by our current respective prime minister Najib Tun Razak...in fact...i can see such concept is working....n it is in its positive development now....i am deeply appreciate such concept is implemented

but the matter here is mainly on our society's stereotyping...

i wanna knw...NEUTRALLY what do they think of us from borneo...so that we can improve...

or perhaps...it gives me an idea to further investigate next time with the knowledge i have, psychology on this human behavior...

not to show off....but at the good side...its somehow rather interesting....to understand this situation....

however...i hope that one malaysia concept will help to ward off such stereotyping...because when i'm in the train on the way to kampar, i heard some of those noisy ah bengs....describing and talking about where is SABAH n how good is their seas...until they wish to go someday....

i was like "WOW!" never tot even they knew it quite well...even the name of the beach...they were discussin about....

they talked bout snookering or this scuba diving thing in sabah....n nice food in sabah....

now tats a great start for one malaysia concept....

but still minority of the citizen stereotyping still exist...unless u can read their mind...n also und why they wanna do this lo....this is my suggestion...

like this we, malaysian will live in a better future n be something to proud!

perhaps...who knws...we will be one of the great countries someday?

fyi...i have a dream of becoming one of the pioneer for being the war correspondent FOR MALAYSIA....

n i am not shy to say it aloud....

so let's held hands together n reduce such stereotyping....for the mutual benefit of all, MALAYSIAN...

"aku sayau ke NEGARA MALAYSIA, so agi hidup sebagai anak malaysia, agi ngeleban untuk malaysia!"

direct translation from bahasa iban: "i love malaysia, so still breath as malaysian, still will fight for malaysia"

fyi...its a broken bahasa iban from me a chinese malaysian hahhaha....soli...but i tried my best d...

to make it sounds patriotic lol....

"selamat menyambut hari merdeka..."

p/s: was suppose to put the one malaysia picture here...but le....when i google i found some PORNS instead of beautiful picture of one malaysia from googling....zzzzz....how sad is tat le?

ridiculous human actions that are based on conformity

the following are the list of COMMON human actions are based on the social norm or conformity or in easier to be understandable PEER or social influence...

1.fashion

2.talking style

3.eating style

4.mindset

owh...why issit fashion is one of them? (well mostly we all knw oledi...) but how about talking...n eating.? why issit so? well...allow me to explain....

and.....

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have to this again...for so called *freedom of speech* not because of the law (i knw it very well, my limit) but rather because of those SENSITIVE-NARROW-SIMPLE-MINDED people around me who has the access to read this....seriously this kind of ppl....GET SOME LIFE!!

WARNING: for what i am going to write...has nothing got to do with anyone around me i knw i came across or anything around me....it is meant for me to share some thoughts...if so u reject it....so be it...x care about it...because this is an act of me practicing the freedom of speech that coexist with our current law...THANK YOU VERY MUCH...

FASHION.

in different culture or different border there are different type of fashion u may came across....

u can see some japanese fashion ah, taiwanese fashion ah or maybe western fashion (mostly like USA style or british) but then...where is MALAYSIA fashion

no i didn't mean about the traditional fashion...i assure u we still following it...but what i mean is the modern MALAYSIAN fashion....so sad i x find any...

all i can see is those ah liang and ah bengs putting on their "Christmas Trees" everyday n look like this:

enough said....

yes, i am aware that our nation is multicultural one...but does tat stop us from creating our own fashion? why do we have to adopt others? until i x find any desirable fashion here in malaysia so i tried out different style (hairstyle to be exact)

this is so sad...i shall say....in terms of modern fashion...Malaysia is like an ants to them....haiz...

also definition of beauty is not because of how curve is ur body or how muscular ur body is...the real beauty ppl! is ur own heart tats the true one....u knw why? the heart is the everlasting one till after death....ur body le? when u're in ur own tomb ur body will rot like wat....ZOMBIE?

TALKING STYLE

"oh my god" in a broken english pronunciation but with strong taiwanese accent....

slangs.... accents....this is so ridiculous...

where's ur own style of talking?

do u knw jay chou n eminem actually get popular because of their UNIQUE style of talking?

why do u have to talk in british accent while ur IC or birth cert says u're born in MALAYSIA?

sometimes i also notice that some mandarin speaker even IMITATE Taiwanese speaker?

do u knw u're making a fucking fool out of urself? be urself , loser lol.....

EATING STYLE

not because of the food...

what i meant is the way they eat....hello malaysians....why do u have to eat like those in KOREAN drama?

why u eat like tat u will be so classy ah? or eat like tat u are a model oledi ah?

oh pls....eating styles doesn't make any different

how u eat? woah...eat sip by sip as if the food is too big for ur mouth for the sake n the love of ur own god...u have a wide mouth! utilize it n dun waste ur own time ur god created for u....zzz....

sad...sad....sad....

MINDSET

now tat one is the landmine.....why?

u see this...

when ppl said or labeled u as a weirdo...everybody will follow the false statement n continue doing it without further investigate the reason why....

how bout i asked u guys this question....

why do u have to follow other ppl's maladaptive thoughts while ur own mind is so pure? why do u want it to be polluted by those brain who oledi being polluted like BLEAK!!

no wonder the whole word jus x help themselves from stopping the pollution...

i bet even the green peace ppl also polluting now la lol....(not big but small like....imposible u guys can avoid using computer? the source of pollution?)

for my own experience....when i changed my hair to mohawk... a person started to badmouth saying my hair lik this cos i want to seek attention and tat because i am crazy oledi...

bullshit pls...have u guys seen the extreme one before?

n u call them crazy?....fyi this is an article i read from a life of a DOCTOR

excuse me doctor? dare to say this doctor as in major in psychiatric crazy?

or she wants to be attention seeker? eh tats BULLSHIT pls...

like her...i'm actually pursuing n doing something i like....

in more general one i guess i will hav a specific article jus for it...cos its long n complicated....

but this is wat i experience...i like my hair tat way cos i want to be MYSELF not because i want to be different than other ppl so tat i can get attention....i x give a shit to those want attend to me....cos i am happy for i am DEREK, in some ways i am oledi successful...i am achieving it wit my own effort n encouragement with family n frens....MARK MY WORDS....

fyi: even my family member especially my brother, Daniel Bong Cheng Hua, x mind at all, why do u guys give a shit about it le? if u all are so collectivist type....

to end my article...

why do u need to fall into those stupid conformity....i tot malaysia is multiracial n by tat means malaysia is COLORFUL?

but why issit malaysians seems so dull saje....

where are the painters? where are the papers? where are the COLORS?

get urself colorful n u will coexist urself happily without all the BIAS n DISCRIMINATION

this is the real life....live wit the colors u have in u....who care wat ppl said ur color is or follow wat color...u have ur own color be who u are n make ur world around

colorful...

REMEMBER THIS IT IS UP TO U TO MAKE THE WORLD COLORFUL, SO BE URSELF!!!

Selling Fresh-Air Packet?

woot! all my assignment, midterms, and presentation for this sem..........DONE!

upcoming...FINALS (scary..)

but nvm, there still got some time for me to continue blogging (after sudden inactive in blogging)

aiya...wat to do...this sem is the toughest compare the rest i had...

woah....everything was so rushing so busy so packed together leaving little luxury time for me to eat n sleep lo...(gaming..ooppss forgot to mention tat lol...)

nevermind....

i got some lame topic for my "comeback" lol....(hmmm...why issit my english is so broken ah?)

alright...actually it is more to some lame thoughts that keep feeding my curiosity la lol...

so what it is?

well, ever wonder this, MINERAL WATER...

i'm not sure how many of u out there actually realize this or not that we are actually paying for something that we can get everywhere?

when we said mineral water..it means natural water...but why issit such a natural resource is charge with some certain amount of price?

i tot we could get it like from the tap water? cos it does taste the same u knw?

somemore...when it was tested...there's not much different the chemical substance contain inside the mineral water? so why bother buying a so called healthy plain water...

why x it be lik u go to the tapwater and drink it? isn't it the same?

not to mention....IT IS IN A PLASTIC BOTTLE!!!

imagine the chemicals dissolves into the water, the mineral water...lol...especially when its near some heat sources? so much more for those melamine cases last time...

hmmm...

MINERAL WATER+PLASTIC BOTTLE = healthy PLAIN water?

not convince? perhaps u should look at this video then....

*i got this idea in my head long time before i even watched this video ok? thats why u can see me carrying around my own water bottle n less seeing me buy any mineral water from restaurant or cafeteria..*

politics? maybe? i'm not sure...who cares...

so if mineral water can sell like so good according to this video above then why not.....

I STARTED THE BUSINESS OF SELLING FRESH-AIR PACKET (NOT THE PERFUME KIND OF FRESH AIR AH)

lol....how can i do it?

simple n easy...

go to the forest...

take some suction machine or something like vacuum...

suck the surrounding air in the forest....(dun worry its renewable)

then go back to the factory...

pack the "air" into the vacuum packet

label it...let say "the country air"

put a price tag on it let say...er....RM0.50 (eh..some tissue paper cos this much )

then sell it to the major cities in the world...where they could jus "pop" inhale n aaaahhhhh....the air from it lol....

in a period of time...

call me billionaire...n my company blooms like desperate flower buds lol....

logic or not?

well it will be if i manage to convince certain ppl la...to get my business started...lol..

woah...rich man's idea u knw....

TAKE NOTE: i am not planning to start this crap business but to show u how SARCASTIC-SILLY-STUPID idea...lol..

not only mineral water le....there's more lo being manipulated into the benefit of economy not for the means of health....

even to the extend of saving someone's life in emergency...what...u need to pay first before u could even see the doctors or nurses...paramedic to perform their healing?

it may sounds not right..but trust me i've read several articles n yes...it really happened until the would be patient of that hospital (not right to mention the name) DEAD!

so now i wonder...issit possible now...if our society system that we actually removed MONEY from it?

what will happened? what is the benefit?

that is a question yet to be answered lo....

till then...

back to blogging again...

now how shall i start after a long period of time not blogging?

hmmm....tell the reasons? (x need cos reasons is useless somehow)

or should i start wit something weird thoughts in my mind? (this gonna scare ppl...lol)

so....

share watever going thru my mind nw...

facebook....

scrolling down facebook...looking thru fren's status...(ya...even those in chinese...)

(no offence its the fact) a lot of them mentioned their problem, or something disappointed ah or something they are piss off in their life....

even some may felt so sad..they even mentioned they wanna cry or felt hopeless

*now this is not for shooting ppl but hopefully this will HELP la*

wonder why all this happened to you or ppl around u?

no its not karma nor its unfortunate

but it is something that meant to happen

why le?

why must we suffer, why we must lost something or why must we faced disappointment?

hard to answer it with all the facts and shit...(pls x make me start with research journals ah...)

but what i can tell is based on my personal experiences and observations...

my answer is...

we all need to experience such a negative situation in order to get the positive one...

now u see this example...

albert einstein, u think in his childhood life, he got his geniuses from genetic or miracle ah? definitely not!

when he was young, he was insulted he was considered stupid he was considered retarded everything regarding education was taken away from him...although his interest in studies was so strong...

and how he ended being so smart? well it is his experience tells him to struggle for knowledge and struggle he was,, until he finally achieved it!

ok not only Albert einstein, we can also take example of Sandra bullock

we all know how she looks like and wat is she famous for; popular actress...but did u know when she was young she was bullied because she was UGLY?

however u also need to perceive the negative experiences as something positive or beneficial to u...

why? if u kept crying over the spilled milk...u think the milk will go back into the carton? of course not....u need to make a move right here right now...n move on...

ya...it might be easier said than done...but if u say this to urself u will have this imprinted thoughts inside urself makes u stand up from the fall n move on....n its ok..if u takes time to change this habit...cos it took me 10 years in mastering it...

not only positive mind...u also need to equipped urself with a logical rational mind...

why le? hundreds of successful ppl are not superstitious (n it is different than having a faithful religion)....

i und it has being a backbone of a person to be superstitious but if skin can be shed off or hair can grow into different type...why not ur mindset?

superstition not only inhibit ur positive development of ur mind...but it also poison ur thoughts....

for instance, in 31st december 1999 they said, y2k thingy is going to destroy the earth the whole earth will be in danger will be in chaos....

until some businessman sold off his properties stocks n all he would ever had...jus to hide underground for such an irrational superstitious...could u believe that?!

then 12.00am 1 january 2000...not a single shit happened...everything still on everything still the same except for the news informing us some ppl did something stupid in their life....

so

should i care about the so called "the fiercest hungry ghost festival this year?"

pls...x make it sounds so bad...i need to make sure my grandfather had his feast also (that is if i am taoist or buddhist)....

n x worry bout the rest...do u knw there's a guardian watching over them?

SO THOSE WHO SIMPLY SPREAD STOP IT IMMEDIATELY, hungry ghost is a good thing not something to be scare off....

i think thats all la...

but to remind u all again....

I AM NOT SHOOTING ANYONE NOR INSULTING ANYONE HERE....I AM JUST TRYING TO SHARE THE THOUGHTS IN MY MIND...HOPING IT WILL HELP INSTEAD OF OFFENDING U....

woah...do i need to do tat everytime? where's the FREEDOM OF SPEECH?

till then....

jus remember...consider ur life is like playing american football....u just got to push it one at a time...fall down or got pwned...nvm..u can still get it up again...n continue pushing through the lines until u reach the goal!

WUSSHHH!!!

fifa 2010 preview of my crazy football fever...

i know its kinda like....

still early to get the drums, the cheers, the craziness the fever and so on...

but still....football le...

who can resist it le?

it's like the whole world watching it...supporting their teams and some even support their favourite countries

so since i x go to south africa to watch it...

wat i gonna do is this...

i will go get a cheap t-shirt or jersey of the nation i support...
this brazil (i think it is obvious)....haiya.i like them cos of the pros are there...most of them!

PORTUGAL!! Cristiano Ronaldo!!! do i need to say more? well i proudly to say...i got this one d..hahhah


well...after zidane left...i dunno whether the team still as good as they were...anyway still support la....France...



all time favourite team (rooney ah beckham and more la is in..limited knowledge haiz...)....but if this is the jersey...shit wei i aint gonna wears tat lo...so fugly pls...

but proud to say i got this one (which i forgot where i place it d),...it is the best one! ahahhaa....but still haiz...england so far always disappointed me lo....haiz...dunno what happen to them...

so since i oledi got england and portugal...to save cost i gonna buy (maybe la) brazil n france lo...hahhaha

however....seen once the match

between barcelona and arsenal (soli ars fan...)

i see something good in Argentina (Messi that is)...

so why not if they are good ah....

so....

perhaps i gonna buy this jersey


alll is what they called it football fever hahahha comes to u once every four years lol...

and here is some of the preview of the football fever...

it's from the fifa2010 song...official ka? i'm not sure...hahhahah



ok la till then....

resume my studies...

SOMETHING FUCK UP IN Y2S1....

this sem is like so fuck up lo....

why? conflicts....degrading.....n worse...DISAPPOINTMENT! (purpose let it hanging....i got my own reason lol...)

u try to imagine this, i told some ppl this "don't do this", "don't do that", "need to have or do this"

and what is the response?





there is none! in other words , ignorance is the word...





then the worst part is that their MISTAKES AND FAILURES, who cover up? ME....not to mention i told them before.....thanks to the creation and application of IGNORANCE!

so fuck up right?

why are they not listening to me?

issit my fault? for being too straightforward?

issit because i am seems useless to them?

my background?

or worse, issit the way how i being a very funny fren to them?

shit la.....

i ain't 5 years old k...although i maybe coming 22 years old...my experience age is far older....why? it is not explainable wanna knw...u turn back the time and experience my life urself u will...knw...

so i dare to say...background of a person is very important......



and issit because i am being degraded or being stereotype of who i am?

this kind of person, this kind of ppl...THINKS THAT I only knw how to BE panas baran or paranoid.... ah...my paranoid...is the one what's going to happen AND IT HAPPENED OLEDI RIGHT? like i said...i am not paranoid...i am logically predicting what will happen....and u see...all of my concern came true SOLID!
need to say more?

yes!

why? some ppl's general stereotyping on person like me....the sarawakian....

wtf....u see this BACKTSABBING conversation...

" so experience meh? his hometown got -censored- meh? only got trees and jungles and mountain je..."

or the verbal conversation (this is the real one....jus happen few days ago)

me: they learn our language but we x take initiative to learn theirs' according to ur opinion, do you think it is a bit unfair?
some person: no, it is not unfair, it is the way how it is what...this is how it happen here in malaysia, this shouldn't be like this for PPL LIKE YOU FROM SARAWAK
me: now this is wat going on here...in my place...we will not learn a shit because we stereotype them
some person: i am not stereotyping ma...i am just saying if this language is not worth, jus like china is expanding economically therefore we need to learn that language.....maybe it is ur own opinion thinking lik this la...we never heard such thing like this"
some person 2: some aborigins in pahang language is very hard to learn actually and its a lot of language we need to learn...we only learn the language whether it is worth to learn it or not..."

p/s: i manage to debate to shut them up...cos going further woah...unprofessionally their emotions bursting out...

weird right? shouldn't i be the one emo since they insulting me?

first, the first person said...-censored- is not stereotyping at all....yeah right...look at the word that is highlighted....hello i am studyin psychology and i am good in observation k?



but tat still ok la...perhaps -censored- never been there so -censored- wont knw....FORGIVEN la.....honest here k...

in addition.....MALAYSIA IS MALAYSIA NOT MALAYSIA INCLUDING SABAH AND SARAWAK.....

WHOEVER GOT THIS ATTITUDE AND BEHAVE IT....U SURE GONNA GET BEAT UP BY ME REAL GOOD TILL U TRAUMATIZE FOR GOOD TOO.!

not being violence pls....doing my part as a Malaysian patriotic!

but the most disturbing is....learning a new language because of the value of the particular language?

not because of ur own interest?

if this how u think.....well not to say completely wrong la...if for doing business well it is value to be learned la....

but...

now i am learning french....issit because someday i will work at french and do business with them? fuck la...i am not planning to go there too....i am learning french because i am INTERESTED in it....because french language is unique, and it sounds so romantic...love the sound of the words and many more...imagine "il" for anything even human that is masculine and "elle" for anything even human that is feminine...

for me this statement...which the "some person 1" solidly said is very naive.....

not naive as in insulting
but rather lack of experience person...still -censored- is forgiven....

haiz.....imagine that....how i felt...



but as my fren said before.....whatever the stress need to relieve it out...not divert it to other ppl...so what i did?

thanks to Kuok Rong, Iskandar and baron's new drug.....pool....

played for 3hours and it happens for 2days.!

i am relieved d....now doing my best to start my studies...now....

gonna get my best-effort-on-studies going now....

because i tell myself this....

"year 2 oledi, u gotta be in the Dean's list le"

till then....

FYI, WHOEVER IS EMO AFTER READING THIS MEANS U R SO PERASAN....

PLS LA...

DID I MENTION WHO IS IN THERE?

SO FUCK OFF, X SO SIMPLY FUCK WITH ME K? TELLING SOMETHING HOW I FELT AND HONEST HERE...

U X GET ALONG WITH ME GET AWAY THEN....I X GIVE A SHIT....I GOT GREAT FRENS AROUND ME NOT IN QUANTITY BUT QUALITY OK?

seafood.....muahahahhaha....

its chap goh meh now and its the chap goh meh dinner...(the last day of cny celebration)...

so whenever i recall back of chap goh meh...muahahhahah

i will always never forget the seafood dishes....

damn...x able to find the seafood dishes...so i ma

upload the pict at wet market and its usually found in brunei (because only there we can easily get the fresh fish and etc....woahahahhahah)

fyi the pict is courtesy of (i grab it la...) from Excapade Sushi's facebook
and the following is the facebook url;
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=129818&id=48655645793#!/pages/Brunei-Town-Brunei/Excapade-Sushi/48655645793

muahahhahah

first pict....

(let the pict do the talkin k, cos i got bunch of books to read for midterm tomolo....)
my favourite!!!! woot!!! and if u notice the price for the clam? the one above this one...its B$4 per kg so converted to RM is multiply by 2.4 (do the maths urself) thats why when i come over here ....its so crazy to find the price here is so cheap!! that is RM1.64 why so expensive cos we all love that exotic food lol...

fyi i did manage to try to eat it raw with some lemon on it...yet i x get stomach ache ...how fresh it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nextz...
ok la...not so nice...but if u fried it...woahhhhh....especially with the flour thingy....woahahhaha

tenggiri ni..............woot!!!
muahahhaha....prawn loving it (although i am so allergic to it...) still i love the taste of it especially if its fried with butter and "last touch" by the vodka.....
woah...nice one also........................

ok la tats all wanna head back to my physio...

but tomolo will share bout....

here's a preview...

try to guess...where and wat is tat??

ok till then....

" it's always a nice food when u feel its like ur home"

are we prisoner of society?

i've doing research regarding this question...

and guess what a lot of answer appear to be "YES"

how come?

according to what it says...its the

LAW

SOCIETY CONFORMITY

CULTURE

SOCIETY VIEW...

all of this mentioned are the so far factor i found that makes us the prisoner of the society, not PHYSICALLY but rather SOUL AND MENTAL(psychological)

its still doubt me that even there's an example given in the democratic country where FREEDOM is so concern...still he or she is the prisoner of the society...

WARNING!
WHAT I AM GOING TO SAY HAS NOTHING GOT TO DO WITH ANYONE AH..

first, thing, due to my neutral principal, i am not going to discuss bout the LAW as being the factor for the us being the prisoner of the society...

but....

society conformity...

now this is something very disturbing, not to mention this research where conducted at the western society and western society are famous for their individualistic value...

from the word individualistic, u may knw what it meant oledi, so do i need to explain more?

society autonomy conformity is something like this, one group in the society says that this particular fashion is so nice so beautiful it makes u so adorable and a lot of guys will so like u if u dress up like this, ok then this group wears tat way and portray it to the society, and what happens the rest sees it wow!!! i lik i wear the same...then suddenly it will looks like UNIFORM for the whole society....but then when there's minor group who doesn't lik this fashion at all and wears as she likes and what happen here is that the one who fall into the conformity will degrade this group and thus discriminate them....then tats how the weirdo, gig, nerd, and so on appear in the society....

then

culture, well culture i do agree, its hard to say no to it... cos its ur backbone of who u r!!! and we all obtained it when we are here in this world!!

so why feel bad of being who u r? being in this culture being in ur own culture cos its ur belief of course!

to make it short...culture is ur background!! and background is reflecting the personality of who u are now and what are u going to be about....this is culture....so be proud of it!!!

but this factor has something got to do with society conformity and its the matter of majority!!!

and what happens is this, imagine, u are in the society where, majority is the culture A but u r the minority that having the culture B and whats going on here is this, the culture A will try to convince u or do something about it, which sometimes by force...so that u would "brainwashed" into the culture A and if u reject....the consequence is similar that is u'll be degraded and discriminate, thats why there a lot of nickname came out from this phenomenon; banana! (means u r chinese physically but u have this so called ang mo value inside (white)) or nigger or lakia or more....

for culture is the dangerous issue, why? a lot of wars happened because of cultural factor and oen famous example is the bosnia war and nazi's holocaust...

so tolerate pls.....

society view...and what i meant is media influence or propaganda or more....as long its what makes the society build their view or change their view...

make it simple and short

well i think i gave the first example oledi ah...which is the fashion

but then le...i came across more!!!

one is Marylin Monroe, well back at her time she's consider the goddess beauty! but she's x fulfill current requirement of beauty, that is being slim! and slim as in lik coke bottle....but she's not at all....and its only half a century different....so whats next?

and because of this new media influence of beauty haiyo, cases for bulimia increases and till one of the supermodel died for suffering acute underweight...come on ppl...be who u are....

killed urself for the means of beauty? lol...

(soli ah i knw its quite shaky the points here oh well i x reveal my work for now...)


but for me, i don't think so i am a prisoner of society, according to my own perspective...and ya...after spending weeks doing research on this...i am still not convince!

why?

society conformity, for those who knws me well, do i dress like those up to date fashion? lik currently fashion is er....do i dress like those film star? ok let say i lik BEP (black eyed peas) so much!!! i somehow adore their music and their fashion too!!! but u ever see me wears lik them? hair style like them?

hahha my hair....well here in malaysia they x really likes the hair i am having now...but more to straight hairs....and not to mention, they said to me before, that i should not go under the sun so much, must protect my skin to maintain my skin to be fair...so what can i do if i got dark skin (cos i was so fair when i was small compare to now), it doesnt matter to me cos i am active thats how i got my skin tanned.. but weird thing is that, those western....rather goes to the beach to get their skin tanned not to mention products for skin tanned?

then culture...

i appreciate other culture but i x fall into them although honest speaking the culture in west malaysia and east malaysia jus across the sea, DIFFERENT A LOT!!!

how different should find out urself.....

and yes...it happens to some cases that some fanatic materialistic group said to me that we live on top of the trees.....and yet we still do ......and this has being going on for ages why? during my father's teenage time; they said the same thing to him....

and this is what my father told me to response to those fanatic group...

"yeah we stays on the tree...and we x wear slippers but only wears it when we goes abroad"

"true we x have tall buildings but we are proud cos we have beautiful beaches and trees...aka forest!!!

so ya to those fanatics, before u come to conclusion bout us stayin on trees, pls go visit sarawak or sabah first before this conclusion is drawn...

then....society view...

as i said BEP is my favourite!! but i x fall into those media influence...and watever shit says by the some ppl i x give a shit also....i still being myself...

they said in some society view that i cannot be third party for some cases

and the reasons is this; third party is annoying and always the cause for failure!!

ok if third party is annoying and the cause of failure then said this to US president when he always brings the two parties together to negotiation table or counselor, they are the third party too!! how...should knw why lo.....or worse come to worse....Jesus Christ for being the messiah and Nabi Muhammad for helping to reunite two clans...

so being a third party is something what they call it "KE-PO" come on...this is what they called it SAMARITAN ACT!!!

er....i think thats all lo....cos of limited information are allow to display....for some reason la....

but i have to warn u all again, TO WHOEVER IS READING THIS, PLEASE READ IT BY UNDERSTANDING OR ACADEMICALLY AND NOT BY FEELING AH...I AM NOT WRITING STORYBOOKS! AND WHEN I SAID I X THE EXAMPLE REFER TO ANYONE I MEAN IT....

thanks...

till then ppl....

"the personality of a person is made up by his or hers bricks and foundations of their background" quoted by Socrates

Happy Chinese year and valentine!!!

This picture is credit to baron's friend; Steven for the picture i grabbed it from his fb photo....

on the feb 14, every year, from what i see,usually the male partner(sometimes the female one) will buy flowers and give it to their love one in their own unique way, and ohya it usually comes with chocolate, cards and for some love one...it will comes along with the gift!! then the very same night, woah...bring out to the luxurious dinner or special cook-at-home-romantic setting hahhhaha

this is event is what i called it love-booster day!!! why? cos they make the bond between two lovers even closer than ever year by year...

ohya it's also great money for the florist, chocolates seller, gift shops and many more...why double price still can sell it out cos of the commitment occurs by the lovers....

and this year 2010 is special or can say once a life time!! why? cos it falls exactly the same day as the chinese new year....and this is the first time i experienced it also!!! wow!!! but this very day has their very own purpose for the destiny...why? we shall see it about it later...

now lets look into the history of valentine day!! or st.valentine.....(soli ah for those who x like history..)

but still should knw about it cos its better to knw WHY valentine day occur rather than merely WHAT u should do on valentine day...

fyi there's a lot of st. valentine but i picked one suits with what i gonna says next....further read

go to......

http://www.history.com/content/valentine/history-of-valentine-s-day

One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men — his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

note that its a legend cos there's a lot of st valentine stories...but i found this more realistic to be called upon as saint....(my opinion la k....its not blasphemy)

and then we all shall look into what is the main purpose this CHINESE NEW YEAR occur....

not that on this very day u eat only, play fireworks only, collect ang paos ($) or chit chat with relatives and friends....or for some worse case...showing off time!!!

from my understanding....CNY in fact is meant and for the main purpose the REUNION OF THE FAMILY MEMBERS and so as THE GATHERING OF OLD FRIENDS....or THE TIME U APPRECIATE FRIENDSHIPS...

its not only the chinese custom says that u all need to go back on cny and its a must...but if u look into it carefully, a custom tat makes this community going back to the family every year! aint tat great?

i have a friend who said this to me, "haiz...valentine day i x celebrate with her..." "the valentine day for me this year is so boring" "this year i am going to celebrate this valentine alone (single)"

and as i said earlier....how come such event can be so special?

from this legend, can u see the words i highlighted and bold?

valentine is not only meant for the lover for instance ur gf, bf, husband or wife...

but valentine day, most ppl x realise that the real valentine day is meant for ur LOVE ONE!!! and when i meant ur love one i am referring to YOUR FAMILY, YOUR PARENTS, YOUR BROTHERS, YOUR SISTERS, YOUR RELATIVES AND SO AS YOUR FRIENDS....

valentine is meant for is for the celebration of relationship and yet the CLOSEST RELATIONSHIP U EVER HAD is ur family!!!!

so PRAISE TO THE LORD, that this valentine is a miracle by Him for He made it on the very same day as the CNY...

so that we all have our chance to get close to our love one...

express ur love to them like u never did or u ever wanted to...there's no sin found in expressing ur love to ur parents...

and for me u should consider putting ur parents first or family first in ur everyday priority....

not that i am so narrow...but if u consider this....

who's love that makes u exist here in this very world?

who's dedication that makes u walk on this earth?

who's commitment that makes u the person of who u r?

want answers? look at ur family for the answer...u will knw one and get it from them...

for ur family, u x need to buy flowers for them or all the things i mentioned at the very beginning but the moment u spend with them the quality moment and so as the duration u spend with them....

spend it all with them...why? for those who work out station or study abroad...

u will feel so homesick or cry when u're on ur way back here cos u felt like u x spend enough with ur family...ur frens....

because the valentine days is meant for the celebration of love and the one who actually gives u the definition and the understand so as the soul of love is ur PARENTS!

so take this chances now and celebrate it with them also!!!

and not only for Chinese friend i am addressing to, also to all my friend from other races than Chinese, it's a national holiday!! so u all can take this opportunity to do the same thing to ur parents!!! woot!!!

till then....

"if there's no such thing as LOVE occur between ur parents, u will never ever walk on this life...."

Manipulation...

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many manipulation i have came across in my life...

some i may agree its a healthy manipulation and some may be the unhealthy one...

now what are the difference between this two manipulations?

imagine this....

A mother, lied to her son that his dog gone missing, dunno where it went and told the son that the dog is forever gone... but in fact the dog got hit by the car and died and she buried it...so do you think its the healthy one? definitely its the healthy one...these is a great sacrifice that a mother had to come out a white lies in order to protect the son's feeling...so be empathy about it...

or

manipulating one person of whom u r care for...and manipulating it for the benefit of your image status in the society or shall i call superiority FAME!!! somehow like this... u got a gf that is so outgoing and when i meant by outgoing means a bit boyish type...and ya she sort of sees ur heart...but when she is together...with him...he changed her a lot manipulate her into doing something glamour and from the 3rd person view is seems as manipulating somehow to do something that is not for herself good but rather for himself.....so what u gonna called that one? healthy manipulation? of course not....!!!!!!

now for me I DISGUST those person who manipulate ppl for the benefit of their own...

its like playing with his or hers doll...

and what benefit did it gonna get?

manipulating will never bring good ending if its for the self-benefit...

try to imagine the situation, u will understand better!

now allow me to ask u some opinion...

Do you support those who manipulate anyone else for the self-benefit purpose?

for me i DON't why?

cos this unhealthy manipulation is like the devil on the shoulder....

so think again...if u think u r doing some unhealthy benefit!!!

till then...just wanted to express my opinion...

"manipulative can be good if u give, but it is bad when u said for ME!"

NOTE THAT;
THIS ARTICLE HAS NOTHING WITH TO DO ANYONE AROUND ME! ITS JUST A MATTER OF EXPRESSING MY THOUGHT!

paradise....

this is exactly how i got the idea of paradise i mean the idea talking about paradise comes from...

Miss Yew tersilap kata PARALYZE for paradise..and then Jun Keong asked me about what is paradise....then i said to him....Paradise is something like for example if its for the person D is hot sexy chicks...then a place that filled with the hot sexy chicks is the person D's paradise.....so after a few daydreaming...(eh i got listen in the class ah...only a session of daydreaming lol....) i quickly jot down the word paradise onto my palm...which i asked the pen from boon long....

now...what is paradise?

have we came across one?

have we ever experience one?

is paradise a place or its a sensations?

here's some dictionary definition of paradise; heaven (in some religion)...or the garden of Eden or an ideal place or state?

In the dictionary it focuses on the place...but have we ever found our paradise yet in this world?

IF YOU EVER COME ACROSS ONE! NAME ONE AT THE CHAT BOX! lol....

but based on my opinion i x think so....and why is that?

ok allow me to explain it using pictures...

the first one.....

WARNING! this is a random pict from google ah....


first i have no idea where's that place is...if i knew i will go there asap and submerge myself into this water...cos at this moment the weather here is so hot!!!!!!!!!!

some say it's a paradise!
look at the crystal clear of the water!! woot!!! so calm the wind...so relaxing...and felt so city free!!! not to mention got a good view...imagine u're lying down there at the beach under the shelter....over looking the sea....at the mean time enjoying ur own juice or for those alcoholic, some cocktail....tropical style...yeah!!! and on the hand (physically) holding a book enjoying reading from it....

but some may say it's a HELL!
the most typical one, for some who scare of sun ( what u're a vampire?) will not lik it? cos its too hot...scourging...killing and suffocating!! and they will thinks lik who the hell in the world got ppl wanna go such place lik a desert except meeting the sea....or perhaps for some ppl scare of water? or for some ppl who experienced PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) of tsunami...will they ever be going back there again? or worse...for the geeks( not insulting them but this is wat they called themselves) will not able to survive a minute of IT-less....

now u see it?

this two different view of paradise...

so till now what is paradise?

............then based on my opinion, i suggest that the place is a paradise to the paticular individual if he or she feels COMFORT WITH IT (sensations)

and whats the stand towards this argument?

as mentioned earlier... some may thinks the tropical beach is a paradise and a lot of visitors will go for vacation and "ka-ching!" money many come come!

but some may just stay in the room like the 7 eleven business hours...

so straight to the point.....

I believe that the paradise and the best paradise ever experience for one person is

their own HOMETOWN!

why?

ever experience when u work or study at somewhere else...and u get this feeling of homesick?

or maybe somehow at some point u will get culture-shock!

or maybe sometimes u miss the food u enjoy?

or do you miss your family?

miss ur pet?

all of this could explain and support my point that the actual paradise is not the vacation hotspot but rather your own hometown!

some may deny it! but if u critically evaluate it....what say you?

is there anywhere else in this world that u could do anything i mean anything!!! u want or felt like zero stranger?

so ya...

MY HOMETOWN MIRI AND BRUNEI IS MY PARADISE!!! I LOVE IT AND I X DENY IT AT ALL!!!

for those going back to ur hometown i request that u all enjoy ur time to the fullest there and x left a single shit out...so that when u're back here u wont say this again " gosh i miss my bla bla bla" or "damn it here is so boring!!!"

till then...ppl...

"enjoy ur coming holidays ah! lik there's no more holidays....."

they say," sharing is caring so...."

the church....

the mosque..

the temple....

my mom's favourite "tiang peh ngu" lol....

the sunset view.....

the pasar malam....

Miri city's night life....

that's all ah.....

ambition that i wish to achieve one day....

ya...i know, the title sounds kinda childish....

but wait...don't judge the whole story by the cover only that is the title just continue reading it. you will know what am i talking about eventually....(this is due to me, so fail in looking for appropriate title for this blog...)

How well do you know about WAR?!

and for those fast judgementalist; no this is not my ambition that is becoming a soldier....

at the very beginning, my exposure to war was so limited...cos i x really care about news when i was young....then there's this movie, a mini series actually...

known as ......band of brothers, i know for sure few of u would be so familiar about this movie... and what so special of this movie related to my ambition?

when i watch this, i am not interested in the "boom, boom pow" of it.....but rather the story line of it...it expose to me the weakness and the dangers of the war in the very clear picture!

ever imagine, you just make friends with a soldier and you two went to fight together...not even a day the person u know die in front of u...worst part...whenever u do...even with this protection...u will get shot out of no where and die just like that....a human life wasted because of the politics means and the violence...

ok let's not talk about it that much.....

now the reason why why i introducing this movie is because of my ambition of becoming.....

A WAR REPORTER

yes, i am aware of what happened to late Daniel Pearl (more info bout him watch "almighty Heart" by angelina jolie)...but do you know whats the purpose i hope of becoming the war reporter?

not that i want to take some pictures and earn some money for the photo shooting,

not that i want to experience war or act macho ways to involve in war....so come back home also felt like a hero

not that i want to feel war cos i had too much of war games and movies of it...

not that i love to get hold of the gun....

I AM NOT ALL THE ABOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE REASON WHY I WISH TO BECOME THAT IS,

"TO SHOW TO THE WORLD THE REAL SITUATION OF WAR!"

perhaps, when i was small i was thought by my parents to not fight among ourselves...and even if we have to fight we need to negotiate peacefully with tolerance means....

and thanks to my parents i uphold this value throughout my life and not even tempted to resort in violence.....

why do we need violence while God gave us the right to speak...so use it...

we are not meant to kill each other.....even animal try to avoid but why would we?

its not that i wanted to be the first Malaysian war reporter...i x see this pride as something of "Malaysia Boleh"

what i want is the whole eyes fix on the situation of the WAR and stop it resort to peace ways of settling things...

my father once said this to me "if u play fire with fire, it will continue burning endlessly..."

and the following will be the pictures of the war situation which i adore the most...courtesy to TIME.COM ah....(hope they wont sue me for i am sharing my thoughts here)

Casualty of War

An American soldier killed by German snipers, Leipzig, Germany, April 18, 1945. (photographer Robert Capa)

Moment of Impact
The Death of a Loyalist Militiaman, Cerro Muriano, Cordoba front, September 5, 1936. (another work of Robert Capa)

Wounded
A U.S. soldier is evacuated from the battlefield after being severely injured by fire from a U.S. helicopter in a friendly-fire incident.

Long Climb

Soldiers hike on an arduous 14-hour patrol up the mountains above the Korengal Valley.

Firefight
A U.S. soldier fires at Taliban fighters during a multipronged insurgent attack on U.S. and Afghan troops in the Watapor Valley.

and this the best pictures i came across (for me la of course...)

Isolated
A soldier stands guard over Urstan Pass.

now after u read all this u will wonder why would i want to take this kind of pictures?

if u wanna be in the shoe as i am, may i suggest u to further view the pictures at the following links ;

http://www.time.com/time/photoessays/2007/kozyrev_qubah_multimedia/

and especially this one;

http://www.time.com/time/photoessays/2007/war_home/

since Mass media always have the strong power of influence...so why not?

lol....

anyhow this is merely a dream and i am not sure i am able to achieve it or not le? why?

cos i dun even have a camera yet le.....so sad...

hahahhah nvm one step at a time....thats what we should do....

now does it still sounds childish to you? lol.....

till then ppl...

"daydreaming is not a sin, instead its the salvation to your success..."