life is fair, its all up to your own effort...

before i continue...i am practicing democratic freedom of speech...only a fool will not recognise it...

well first of all...this came to my mind when a lecturer (note tat: i do not hate him at all ..FULLSTOP its only for the sake of mutual benefits....) kept mentioning "life is not fair" all n over n over n over....n not only him said tat...Bill Gates said it too....

but....as we all know everyone is unique...n great minds comes from great diversities...

so...i do not agree with this statement that life is not fair...

ya...i knw it seems like karma never work....or why issit u're not a prince of a royal family ah...why are u not rich....why i x have the chance to further study overseas ah...why i x have a hot n pretty girlfriend ah..or hot boiling boyfriend...and etc.....

hence.....complain n complain n complain.....whining n on and on n on....thats all?

where's the effort? you just gonna be like...leave it unfortunate as it is? thats all?

allow me to provoke u!................why are u a L.O.S.E.R?

and why did i said that?

like the example i mentioned in facebook status...

ever consider US how they gain independence from British at tat time? what they are just a peasant? its not fair...to compare with their opponent a fully well trained soldier...yet highly equipped....n how did they defeat such a powerful country at that time? until they were corner n need to raise white flag near the shore? how could they possible defeat them? not to mention decades later...successfully defended their land when british came n attack again?

ok...then x mention bout US make it more regional....how bout u consider indonesia...how they gain their independence? from Holland? lay back n wait for them to give it in? no they all stand up n fight!

revolution 1911 in china

qing conquest over ming dynasty?

mahatma ghandi ways of gaining independence....

the way how albert einstein become the genius human kind we ever know although his education background is not fair at all!!

or perhaps stephen hawking...he is attack by a disease leaves him paralyze and for typical ppl like most us...we will felt hopeless and useless...but he still able to crack the secret of blackhole theory?

and many more events....that shows unfortunates become the great success!!

then what are the similarities? u notice from all d events i mentioned?

they all responsible!!!

for the US case...the peasant responsible to fight for their independence right...

for the indonesia...they too same as the US....take up the weapons and fight!

china...believe in democracy....so stand and support for their believe....

the Qing well....they are not as good as the luxurious Ming dynasty? how they win le? determination and efforts!!

same goes to him, mahatma ghandi

and then albert einstein and stephen hawking....if say life is not fair...and they take up this idea as well...that life is not fair...do you all physicist will be able to continue or expand the studies from these two great minds?

not only historical events....religious...

buddhism...if life is not fair...then why issit the concept of karma is there?

christian? david and the goliath? Jesus himself? the slaves of the egyptians freed by Moses?

Muslim...Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. when he was under hot pursuit by the pagans? for his teaching? several attempts of not making him as a leader until life is at stake? yet he became the Khalifah? and protect the holy city agaisnt the pagan?

does this ring a bell to u?

that life is fair only if u show an effort and responsibility to yourself?

don't u think ur own religion teaching oledi mentioned the responsibility in your own life?

oh i knw some females may say...so unfair male cant get pregnant...we need to endure this pain and all...but once the baby is born...who is the baby more attach to?

u think God would like this world to be not fair? if u speak of religion?

so what if u r poor...u think its god-will? if it is..x u think its a test that actually gives u motivation to achieve better than this?

my personal case...i wasn't that fucking rich when i was so young....as compare to those rich fellas....they have everything they got...they have internet...guiness book of world record...that and this book of facts...and all....yet at that time...my mind is far richer than theirs....why? and how? i watch discoverys and nat geo only tat time...i went to library every two days....i borrow my rich fren's guiness book...i x have text book at that time...yet i am the top of the class and the school....i x go tuition they all go....yet...my rich frens teach me...with what they learned....and now thanks to all my frens help and my own effort.....i am what i am now...

u see?

or shall i say its unfair....parents is not always around wit me when i was 14years old onwards...i live alone with my brother...and somehow we have trouble with ourselves...food mostly...and house chores.....but i x see this as a negative one...u knw why?

u see here....i am in UTAR...i am able to survive alone....i could only spend RM50 per week.......i know how to spend wise...i knw how to take care myself when i was injured n sick....i can manage my own lifestyle to proper ways.....

all in all thanks to my parents for giving us early training of living alone...so that i wont be crying because of homesick....

do u call this unfair?

no not at all.....it is unfair if u remains it without any turning points from u....

all u need is RESPONSIBILITY that's all....

so ya...i x believe that life is not fair...why not?

history, religion, philosopher, famous ppl, and me myself...oledi shows life is fair only if u determine to make it fair....n just....

so life is not fair when there is lack of responsibility....enough said!

till then!

remember...this is my own opinion in my effort to practice the freedom of speech thank you....if u get angry with this...i may suggest u to google for the term freedom of speech....

y2s2 sem break...

ok what did i do le? all this while?

as usual la...pictures says it all....with a little caption from me hahahhaa

u knw me la...i lazy to type in words....

so...i shall begin with food...lol..

in brunei one...wat i ate le...

this is a duck meat dish...er...i dunno wat it call la...but its my mom's dish..one of my favourite!!! hahahh mayb because she like duck meat too hahaha...something genetic alike me n my mom lol...

yes...for those who eat wit me before...i never like tau qe...hahha but exempted for my mom's one...she gt her way on how to add certain taste to it...n make it lik woah!!! so nice...hahhahah

apa ni? why this is another mom's dish...ingredients....secret...no la...its just tat i dunno what she put...make it taste sweet n got one kind of tempting aroma from it...n once u bite it...u jus x stop finishin it lol....it taste like...wow! hahahha to be honest,....this is the best chicken i ever taste!!! woah!!!

ini dia...one of brunei famous nasi lemak...every morning u go there eat sure...banyak orang...nasi..got an aroma like so gao gao...then d beef...woah!!!! hahha n it cost B$1.00

sometimes u can also eat along wit this chicken wings...cara ia goreng...i dunno la..but it can make until so thin n crispy...yum yum le...cheap also lo lol...but not to convert to RM la...soli....

this is thien thien steamed chicken rice...i like this so much...we came here eat lik occasionally...yet so long like decades...it still taste nice...smooth n woah!!!

this one is escapade sushi...hhaha i love their sushi...its very fresh...n not so "kiam sat" as in stingy bagi salmon tat is not enough for the sake of taste lol....

this one le...is my little bro, Deren intro me to eat...n this is very nice yet...d price is reasonable lo...n yet...d taste of d fish is like super fresh...although its raw...i tell u lol...(because their fish mostly is local straight from the sea...i assume...) ya...i had sushi for my lunch lol....yum yum...

ok other than eat eat eat....buying foods also quite interesting in brunei...especially in supasave...got a lot of varities...n below d pict is one of them,.,..

this le...is all kind of seasoning of different meat lol...

this is the wide varieties n fresh herbs...n d price...is not so expensive lo actually....

salmon hams.....hams...fish hams...cod hams....any kind of hams lo....there hahha except for pork one la...only available at certain corner...for toleration reasons....respect ppl pls....hahhaha but le...this is all very very nice one...hahhah especially smoked salmon hams...yumm....imagine it melts wit d cheese on ur sandwich lol....

this bull head looking vege...hahhaha consider a vege ka? lol...but le...its edible hahhaha dunno d local call it wat liaw lol....

then FERRARI lol...i knw its random but i found this in my hp lol...i was trying to take the interior one...cos too curious on how its interior look like lol...got a lot of ferrari in brunei but outside always i saw....interior seldom lol....so fail......hahhahaha (x worry he didnt notice also...)

fyi...the lady in green attire is my mom lol...

ok...have a break n look at the fish pond.....nice...n calming...

then continue.....

now moving on to miri...lol...

but start wit food first hahahhaa....

this in foochow "teng meng ngu" hahhaa i dunno wat it means...but its my mom's favourite lol..she always order this one...it taste er...very er...i dunno how to describe cos i seldom eat tat lol...but it taste nice la lol...

this one le..i always order lol....its foochow's zhao chai mee hun lol....err..dunno how to translate...it taste very sour...n i like it sourish hahha woah...!!!

then hang out wit frens wit all sorts of activities hahahhaha lol..

but this is unforgettable lo...

at daphne's house nittendo wii's band sth sth i forgot d....guitar..i fail......drum i faill.......i dunno why...n lastly...the easiest of all.....singing...i also faill.........

if u notice it...in d tv screen u can see my guitar is failing lol....hahhahha

oh no...i join choir le...church choir le....n all.....but yet...i fail in singing? oh no!!! hahahhahhahah need a lot of training n come back we play again!!!! must ah!!! lol...

my goodness i fail singing lol......

the miri house hahaha lol....ya kinda messy a bit...cos its usually left unattended (only my mom la but she is busy lo) since i came to UTAR lol...n d floor ya tats after i washed the car lol...this house although it doesnt seems much...but it got all d comfort it can give...hahhahha n lagi syok le...is wat?

its this...lol...

got BIRD NEST in my house le...lol...feel so natural le my house until a bird built d nest there lol....make d house lagi warm lol...woah!!!!!

other organism built their nest i will remove like cockroach ah n rats or cats as their breeding place i sure kick them out n clean it...

but not for this...its like miracle le....hhahaha a nest inside my house!!! hahaha i love it le lol....

i think tats all i can talk bout it lo...hahha not all pict i can upload here hahhahahha

but before i end this....

the pity-shark-at-the-gadong-wet-market wanna say "hello!!!" hahhaha owh...it looks so sad hahhahah

and i realize i mentioned and upload a lot of food wor.....aiyoyoyo...potential fatso here le lol...

ok la till then....

"other may say...this and that place is a paradise...but like i once said...my hometown is my very own paradise"

swimming in the ocean

specially thanks to Counselling Practicum cos it actually gave me the idea for a metaphor to describe my uni life...

yes...everyone has their own metaphor to describe their uni life..some may mention bout coffee or perhaps like riding a car?

but mine is.....

"swimming in the ocean"

swimming is the ocean may sounds crazy n weird...

yes, uni life is one heck of crazy journey for us...u may see it thru someday....

so as we swim across the ocean...the wide journey seems never ending journey

we may be given up on certain thing or mayb some may give up either before attempt to swim or some may even gave up half way thru the journey...

this journey is not an easy one tats why...

and even if u r ironman athlete, there's few things tat may be getting in ur way...

in the sea...

there are predators...

they will wait for u silently n cunningly to strike u...although the journey may seems promising to u...face the fact! some of the ppl around u may purposely backstab u for the benefit of self... or some may ditch u...or some may even wanna try to defeat u until u left nothing but bones...its true cos when there's human there will be such things ..not to mention there's some situation when u try to achieve it but u r crippled or become lame because of some weakness u have or because of ur background tat u can't avoid maybe?....so face the fact...but x see it as negative, why? without them..chasing after u..will u keep on running? no right?

then...away u r from the predators...

but u r human...u need to come out to surface to inhale sufficient oxygen into ur lungs to continue ur journey...but u knw..in uni life...nt everything will goes as ur plan...sometimes unfortunate things may occur to u..n u never knw when it happen just like lightning strikes u without any advance warning or any clue to u...this is life my fren...cos we are human n we are not the almighty god..so we can't see our future accurately as He is...tats why..

some may fall after this unfortunate strike...( i knw cos i almost got myself there) but i believe tat miracle will happen n it did...so i resume my journey although it is nonsense that once u strike by lightning n yet u still can be alive...should have drown urself deep deep into the sea....

miracle...my fren....miracle anything impossible happen when there's miracle....tats why...

however...some i knw do not knw how to swim at all...n fear of drowning themselves into the ocean...so may not even dare to try...no it doesn't matter...if u knw or not...to swim...u can also find a smarter alternative way perhaps to cross the ocean...n tat is by building a boat

as simple ur boat is ...it doesn't matter..as long u can make it float...built it with ur own will n wit ur own talent n honesty...it doesn't matter right? although seas may be rough or dangerous for such a simple boat to get across...but with the faith n heart...perhaps those who swimming along side u will help u to support it eventually

supporting u till u reach the shore...which we all ended together there...

and this shore is not a normal one as we all knw as we all sees it...daily

its something tht everyone dying to achieve it...risk themselve to be there...

what for?

because of the beauty n frens u struggle together will be there...or perhaps the place tht once describe by ur parents or someone u respect?

yes this is how i sees my uni life....

yet i do realize that u r swimming further n further away from ur own homeland to reach the paradise island...why u wanna do tat...? why do u wanna abandon ur family? ur dad, ur mom? ur sis n ur frens?

well i x position to explain to u why but wat i knw is to achieve such a goal..u need to drop some of ur past u feel safety

u x be the same as u will end up lik stagnant water...

u need to experience the changes of ur life...for the benefit of ur family n urself...this is important...if u wish to achieve ur own success

so my frens out there.... watever stress or some hopeless goal u face...

jus dun give up halfway...either u x step into the water or u find an alternative way to reach the shore of the paradise island...

because if u do so...no one is there to save u...speaking of ocean as the wide n vast places its hard to find u...its like a bean in the rices...

jus dun give up..braise urself...frens are there to help u also...like the boat...even if u r genius, can do well in academic but socially support is needed too...

family not to mention bout them...who concern u from behind...giving u hope n guidance n care u like as if u r still their forever baby to them...

just don't give up if u r halfway there...breath in the air awhile n continue swimming...

but not too long la breathing the air or else the predator will come after u....

so my frens...all the best n braise urself if u encounted it...

lik my motto i always had...."indulge and endure, what may come"

till then my frens...

fyi: i got this metaphor inspired by robinson crusoe stories n the castaway by tomhanks...

Ignorance is Strength

must be wondering why sometimes i tend to ignore frens with their problem?

its not tht i am very cruel, no empathy, dun understand ppl...n it goes on n on....

why i ignore it because i have my own reasons...

not because i dunwan to help anyone already nor i want to run away from taking responsibilities...

but because i found its the best way for them to solve their own problem...

certain people (i will not mention who...for P&C reasons) will only making their problems worse..once they have somebody to talk to...

or perhaps not getting worse, some cases they would actually create a new problem..(so creative wor?) lol...

n why do we need to continue "feeding" of those who only making their prob worse because u console them...

no...its not because i am bad in it...hello...i have years of experiences in this situations...

only after i have study n understand it...yes

it is best to ignore them with their problem...for their own benefit...

n guess what it really works...

it is like their behavior is not positively reinforce...they tend to "sien" with it n change for better....

i knw giving up on certain frens wit prob is not something acceptable especially for those in counseling field...cos it is not right to abandon ur client...

but wat if u can solve it in within weeks rather than months or years? better right? n since i am not earning my income from there also...or gain any benefit...

so wat they will hate me for this or felt disappointed but ask urself...don't u think u had improve a lot from this ignorance?

so sometimes it is best to ignore certain cases tht only becoming worse when u console them...

not to mention...for my own personal opinion....(not support by anything ah)

tht when one person is ignore with their problem...

he or she will indirectly applying Kubler Ross model to themselves...n yes it will be something they are unaware of...(even myself i agree with it)

ya it may seems like it only applies for something relevant to death...

no, trust me...in my personal experiences it actually applies on certain crisis n dilemmas...

how it applied?

ok we knw tat kubler ross model has this five stages

Denial--->Anger--->Bargaining--->Depress--->Acceptance

n wat if u apply to a crisis say...(touchwood ah) ur gf or bf dump u...for another person...

Denial. for those in long term relationship, of course u will not believe this thing will happen n u x accept it at all...so the person will tend on repetitive denying it, n thinks it can't be happening its not real its not true...this thing happen to tat person...n even he ever thought of getting married with him or her at the end....

Anger. of course when u found out wat are the causes, n reasons for this break up...u will get angry x control urself...felt like u wanna have revenge n all this la...some cases will go berserk or amok because of it....if not properly monitor, it will also end up murdering...so monitoring the person at this stage is very very important....(caution some may still stay at this stage for a long time, n a cue to move out from there is needed for him..)

Bargaining . Yes...after the anger and all this....the person will say "if only i could be better for her or him" or the person will go to the love one n begging for her or him to come back again... beg n beg like its never ending one...

Depress. n wat happen when the bargaining fails? depress mode is on!...depress the person it is...feeling helpless giving up n regret even more..for wt happened n sad sad....so at this stage...in order to move on....this is the point u step in briefly to comfort...i say comfort jus comfort...not console...because i assure u...the person in this situation with a little bit of support n comfort...he or she will move on to.....

Acceptance. after all this sad emotional rush on his or hers feelings...finally after he had enough of the depression...the person will end up accepting it as a fact...n giving up to go n fight back their love one again...some may forget the person forever..but le...some may even come back n talk like normal again....like it never happened before....

this my fren is the reason why i choose to ignore some of my frens with problem...n although it will talk longer than it sounds...but the thing is, it wil guarantee success...if careful monitor is involve...la....

so don't need to ask why...once more why i choose to ignore some of my frens problem...or not involving in it anymore...

till then frens....

caution: this is mostly for the means of sharing my opinion n practicing my FREEDOM OF SPEECH..not meant to SHOOT on anyone i knw....so pls remain silent! if u happen to disagree with me..cos it is my RIGHT n when comes to HUMAN RIGHTS! it calls for MUTUAL RESPECT (do i need to define it?) thank you for your understanding...enjoy reading ya...

*seriously...i getting more n more tired of writting this everytime write my own thoughtful article...thanks to CERTAIN STARTER...owh human n their conformity =="....*

thats all...god bless u with ur exams n assignments...

My delayed Happy Malaysia Day!

the last night at around this time....

as i went out for dinner, i saw something very interesting tht sparks my idea to blog

n wat exactly is the incident? well...

i saw a chinese mother with her child playing candles with two indian children (which happen to be the chinese mother's neighbour) n they all get along very well...very fun instead, i can hear laughter i can hear them talking bout it each other, yet the language they used by the indians was english n yet the boy speaks chinese to them...

i was wondering how could they actually communicate each other ? i wonder they understand each other? well it seems like they do...cos they were smiling to each other...

how wonderful it is le?

not only tat, in unrelated event, when i came back home from yumcha, i saw the same chinese mother n the indian mother were talking to each other...n they were like talking as if they are very good frens (gossiping and all those things la lol..housewives talk lol..)

n ya wats so special about it?

yes there is.....they actually comm each other in CANTONESE..yup i am serious in it..cos i pull my ear very long to confirm this...imagine that an indian actually spoke cantonese (fluent one) to her...n seems like not threaten at all....

what say you?

5 years old children, can get along very well..not even fight or stereotype among each other...

if a child can instinctively not being racist among each other...why not us?

why should we need to be racist or stereotyped among each other?

why need to go against each other? worth meh?

of course not...

be tolerate to each other...so wat we have different culture n belief...

but there is one thing for sure that we are all the SAME!

n that is...

WE ARE MALAYSIANS!

n this is something we should be proud of to have such a multicultural nation like us...ask u...

cos u never gonna enjoy such varieties of food thnks to different races in malaysia....

we have more festivals thanks to different cultures in malaysia....

so MALAYSIANS...learn wat tht young children did...n x be ashame of it...cos its something pride for u to do it...

so this i wrote in conjunction of my delayed HAPPY MALAYSIA DAY!!

what did i do this lately?

i guess nothing much cos i am jus some nobody in the town lol...

but still i got a life though....(of course la lol...)

before that.....i need to inform u why did i type so fucking slow...or perhaps mayb short lol....

picture says it all~

no bruise or wound...jus my wrist dunno why le, internally lik so in pain...so fear i might have carpal tunnel...so prevention is better than cure....wise choice le? lol...

n how the hell did my hand end up like this? why thanks to the UAPP2043 CHILD DEVELOPMENT lo....imagine i finish it up the remaining 2 question with 5 pages of it...in just less THAN 30 MINUTES lol....call it pro or wat? oh well wat to do le...

nvm....janji can pass ok liaw la lol....p/s: its not because i didnt study well or much k? i did...n most of it is related wit my assignment so u knw la oh....

so wat did i do le this lately? hmmm....

first of all....before the exam starts....i went all the way to fishing marathons hahahhaha....

no not running or watever those shits...

but rather continuous fishing activities...for few days...woah felt like fishermen d...me n bunch of great frens here lol....(teaching me extra info bout fishing lol...)

not only the fish tat attract us into this marathon activities instead its the feeling of relaxation environment....its so nice till u can actually refresh ur mind....a great foundation to prepare urself to study for exam!! pat on my shoulder i shall say...hahhaha

how relaxing issit? why x worry...i got few picts to show y'all hahhaha

nice environment right? felt so relaxing n peaceful with the air breeze flow thru ur face....woah~

yes...i knw i'm getting fatter d...lol...eat as usual as i am but le...the lifestyle is so so bored...not active at all...wat can i do le?

n here's more pict of it...

kenny n victor...n the view....its funny some ppl claimed there's a crocodile...ya i did saw one....the relative to the crocodile...biawak air tu....aiyeyeye if only i got the tools n ways to hunt it down n cook it for green curry yummy~

and here's a pict of the catch....btw a lot of catch...no.1 is the rohu fish (it happened easier thanks to navin's dedak lol..) then follow by haruan fish....

itu dia...the first blood catch by wui lun hahhah (its a rohu fish btw)....accompany by navin n yama....the first catch also contributed to yama's epic action lol...hahhaha he literary swam to get on the grip with the rod lol....damn its a ganas one...

and the best of all the catch!!

belida~ this is one hell of an ass to catch....navin was like fighting with it like hell until towards near the bank....woah....tell u wat its so strong until need few of us to hulurkan tangan to grab it...was suppose to have more than one le...but then....no net....zzz.....nvm...at least we all have the price....but most credit to navin's hahahhah

now tats fun bout fishing.....

the adrenalin sudden rush in when there's a fish hook on the bait woah...lol...

i think tats all la...the minor ones...x necessary la...lol....

but wats important is as long if there's a relaxing activities janji sure we our mind n soul are at ease....yes...we as a student do have stress although generally it may seems like working is worse than studying...

well.....all i can say is tat we all have different type of stress...n working have different type of stress too.... its only depends on how we cope wit it...

till then ppl....

have fun reading it n all the best for ur exam!!!

"kamu orang sarawak tak pandai baca ke?"

yes...today is a bad day for me...n wat has it got to do with this statement above?

not that i am trying to be negative or trying to cause chaos aka calamity in malaysia but somehow i wish to wonder wats going on in this human society...

at first i was hoping for some help or aid for my mistake (yes i admit it is my mistake that i didn't read properly the TERMS AND CONDITION as stated in the application form.. or is it not mine at all? hmmm....)

nvm...tat will be settled...

the main thing here is this statement which makes me quite disappointed....

i will not mention who is involve cos its for the means of their identity protection...

but a person...mentioned this...while i am dealing with my complications...

"kamu orang sarawak tak pandai baca ke?"

i was shocked n disappointed when i heard such thing mentioned by him....and many more....

somemore i presented my IC saying i am Malaysian...but then...he said "dia tipu mungkin, itu pun juga palsu"....

woah...tat's too much...but for the sake of mutual avoidance on conflict i remained silent...

luckily another person came in n took it over from him...(he kept being so obnoxious angry only)

eventually things settled...(not exactly i had to get down to putrajaya for this matter) lol....which i will go, don't worry.....

but the question here is this, it's already 47 years oledi....but why there's still got this old-fashioned stereotyping happened here....

whats going here? i'm not sure....

i thought its something to be "welcome n appreciate" after 47 years oledi....

or issit me the only one who experience this situation or someone else also....

i'm not sure...

i am not trying to shoot or try to drive ppl around me into chaos or danger...

i wonder do they even knw that sarawak has the highest percentage of public exam passes? (tat is so far i knw when i am still in secondary) n yet...said tat we, orang sarawak knw how to read or not....

haiz...i am deeply disappointed....

any suggestion here? any idea? cos we are proud to be malaysian...but such stereotyping is not helpin at all.....

it has nothing got to do...whether the one malaysia concept is working or not by our current respective prime minister Najib Tun Razak...in fact...i can see such concept is working....n it is in its positive development now....i am deeply appreciate such concept is implemented

but the matter here is mainly on our society's stereotyping...

i wanna knw...NEUTRALLY what do they think of us from borneo...so that we can improve...

or perhaps...it gives me an idea to further investigate next time with the knowledge i have, psychology on this human behavior...

not to show off....but at the good side...its somehow rather interesting....to understand this situation....

however...i hope that one malaysia concept will help to ward off such stereotyping...because when i'm in the train on the way to kampar, i heard some of those noisy ah bengs....describing and talking about where is SABAH n how good is their seas...until they wish to go someday....

i was like "WOW!" never tot even they knew it quite well...even the name of the beach...they were discussin about....

they talked bout snookering or this scuba diving thing in sabah....n nice food in sabah....

now tats a great start for one malaysia concept....

but still minority of the citizen stereotyping still exist...unless u can read their mind...n also und why they wanna do this lo....this is my suggestion...

like this we, malaysian will live in a better future n be something to proud!

perhaps...who knws...we will be one of the great countries someday?

fyi...i have a dream of becoming one of the pioneer for being the war correspondent FOR MALAYSIA....

n i am not shy to say it aloud....

so let's held hands together n reduce such stereotyping....for the mutual benefit of all, MALAYSIAN...

"aku sayau ke NEGARA MALAYSIA, so agi hidup sebagai anak malaysia, agi ngeleban untuk malaysia!"

direct translation from bahasa iban: "i love malaysia, so still breath as malaysian, still will fight for malaysia"

fyi...its a broken bahasa iban from me a chinese malaysian hahhaha....soli...but i tried my best d...

to make it sounds patriotic lol....

"selamat menyambut hari merdeka..."

p/s: was suppose to put the one malaysia picture here...but le....when i google i found some PORNS instead of beautiful picture of one malaysia from googling....zzzzz....how sad is tat le?

ridiculous human actions that are based on conformity

the following are the list of COMMON human actions are based on the social norm or conformity or in easier to be understandable PEER or social influence...

1.fashion

2.talking style

3.eating style

4.mindset

owh...why issit fashion is one of them? (well mostly we all knw oledi...) but how about talking...n eating.? why issit so? well...allow me to explain....

and.....

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have to this again...for so called *freedom of speech* not because of the law (i knw it very well, my limit) but rather because of those SENSITIVE-NARROW-SIMPLE-MINDED people around me who has the access to read this....seriously this kind of ppl....GET SOME LIFE!!

WARNING: for what i am going to write...has nothing got to do with anyone around me i knw i came across or anything around me....it is meant for me to share some thoughts...if so u reject it....so be it...x care about it...because this is an act of me practicing the freedom of speech that coexist with our current law...THANK YOU VERY MUCH...

FASHION.

in different culture or different border there are different type of fashion u may came across....

u can see some japanese fashion ah, taiwanese fashion ah or maybe western fashion (mostly like USA style or british) but then...where is MALAYSIA fashion

no i didn't mean about the traditional fashion...i assure u we still following it...but what i mean is the modern MALAYSIAN fashion....so sad i x find any...

all i can see is those ah liang and ah bengs putting on their "Christmas Trees" everyday n look like this:

enough said....

yes, i am aware that our nation is multicultural one...but does tat stop us from creating our own fashion? why do we have to adopt others? until i x find any desirable fashion here in malaysia so i tried out different style (hairstyle to be exact)

this is so sad...i shall say....in terms of modern fashion...Malaysia is like an ants to them....haiz...

also definition of beauty is not because of how curve is ur body or how muscular ur body is...the real beauty ppl! is ur own heart tats the true one....u knw why? the heart is the everlasting one till after death....ur body le? when u're in ur own tomb ur body will rot like wat....ZOMBIE?

TALKING STYLE

"oh my god" in a broken english pronunciation but with strong taiwanese accent....

slangs.... accents....this is so ridiculous...

where's ur own style of talking?

do u knw jay chou n eminem actually get popular because of their UNIQUE style of talking?

why do u have to talk in british accent while ur IC or birth cert says u're born in MALAYSIA?

sometimes i also notice that some mandarin speaker even IMITATE Taiwanese speaker?

do u knw u're making a fucking fool out of urself? be urself , loser lol.....

EATING STYLE

not because of the food...

what i meant is the way they eat....hello malaysians....why do u have to eat like those in KOREAN drama?

why u eat like tat u will be so classy ah? or eat like tat u are a model oledi ah?

oh pls....eating styles doesn't make any different

how u eat? woah...eat sip by sip as if the food is too big for ur mouth for the sake n the love of ur own god...u have a wide mouth! utilize it n dun waste ur own time ur god created for u....zzz....

sad...sad....sad....

MINDSET

now tat one is the landmine.....why?

u see this...

when ppl said or labeled u as a weirdo...everybody will follow the false statement n continue doing it without further investigate the reason why....

how bout i asked u guys this question....

why do u have to follow other ppl's maladaptive thoughts while ur own mind is so pure? why do u want it to be polluted by those brain who oledi being polluted like BLEAK!!

no wonder the whole word jus x help themselves from stopping the pollution...

i bet even the green peace ppl also polluting now la lol....(not big but small like....imposible u guys can avoid using computer? the source of pollution?)

for my own experience....when i changed my hair to mohawk... a person started to badmouth saying my hair lik this cos i want to seek attention and tat because i am crazy oledi...

bullshit pls...have u guys seen the extreme one before?

n u call them crazy?....fyi this is an article i read from a life of a DOCTOR

excuse me doctor? dare to say this doctor as in major in psychiatric crazy?

or she wants to be attention seeker? eh tats BULLSHIT pls...

like her...i'm actually pursuing n doing something i like....

in more general one i guess i will hav a specific article jus for it...cos its long n complicated....

but this is wat i experience...i like my hair tat way cos i want to be MYSELF not because i want to be different than other ppl so tat i can get attention....i x give a shit to those want attend to me....cos i am happy for i am DEREK, in some ways i am oledi successful...i am achieving it wit my own effort n encouragement with family n frens....MARK MY WORDS....

fyi: even my family member especially my brother, Daniel Bong Cheng Hua, x mind at all, why do u guys give a shit about it le? if u all are so collectivist type....

to end my article...

why do u need to fall into those stupid conformity....i tot malaysia is multiracial n by tat means malaysia is COLORFUL?

but why issit malaysians seems so dull saje....

where are the painters? where are the papers? where are the COLORS?

get urself colorful n u will coexist urself happily without all the BIAS n DISCRIMINATION

this is the real life....live wit the colors u have in u....who care wat ppl said ur color is or follow wat color...u have ur own color be who u are n make ur world around

colorful...

REMEMBER THIS IT IS UP TO U TO MAKE THE WORLD COLORFUL, SO BE URSELF!!!

Selling Fresh-Air Packet?

woot! all my assignment, midterms, and presentation for this sem..........DONE!

upcoming...FINALS (scary..)

but nvm, there still got some time for me to continue blogging (after sudden inactive in blogging)

aiya...wat to do...this sem is the toughest compare the rest i had...

woah....everything was so rushing so busy so packed together leaving little luxury time for me to eat n sleep lo...(gaming..ooppss forgot to mention tat lol...)

nevermind....

i got some lame topic for my "comeback" lol....(hmmm...why issit my english is so broken ah?)

alright...actually it is more to some lame thoughts that keep feeding my curiosity la lol...

so what it is?

well, ever wonder this, MINERAL WATER...

i'm not sure how many of u out there actually realize this or not that we are actually paying for something that we can get everywhere?

when we said mineral water..it means natural water...but why issit such a natural resource is charge with some certain amount of price?

i tot we could get it like from the tap water? cos it does taste the same u knw?

somemore...when it was tested...there's not much different the chemical substance contain inside the mineral water? so why bother buying a so called healthy plain water...

why x it be lik u go to the tapwater and drink it? isn't it the same?

not to mention....IT IS IN A PLASTIC BOTTLE!!!

imagine the chemicals dissolves into the water, the mineral water...lol...especially when its near some heat sources? so much more for those melamine cases last time...

hmmm...

MINERAL WATER+PLASTIC BOTTLE = healthy PLAIN water?

not convince? perhaps u should look at this video then....

*i got this idea in my head long time before i even watched this video ok? thats why u can see me carrying around my own water bottle n less seeing me buy any mineral water from restaurant or cafeteria..*

politics? maybe? i'm not sure...who cares...

so if mineral water can sell like so good according to this video above then why not.....

I STARTED THE BUSINESS OF SELLING FRESH-AIR PACKET (NOT THE PERFUME KIND OF FRESH AIR AH)

lol....how can i do it?

simple n easy...

go to the forest...

take some suction machine or something like vacuum...

suck the surrounding air in the forest....(dun worry its renewable)

then go back to the factory...

pack the "air" into the vacuum packet

label it...let say "the country air"

put a price tag on it let say...er....RM0.50 (eh..some tissue paper cos this much )

then sell it to the major cities in the world...where they could jus "pop" inhale n aaaahhhhh....the air from it lol....

in a period of time...

call me billionaire...n my company blooms like desperate flower buds lol....

logic or not?

well it will be if i manage to convince certain ppl la...to get my business started...lol..

woah...rich man's idea u knw....

TAKE NOTE: i am not planning to start this crap business but to show u how SARCASTIC-SILLY-STUPID idea...lol..

not only mineral water le....there's more lo being manipulated into the benefit of economy not for the means of health....

even to the extend of saving someone's life in emergency...what...u need to pay first before u could even see the doctors or nurses...paramedic to perform their healing?

it may sounds not right..but trust me i've read several articles n yes...it really happened until the would be patient of that hospital (not right to mention the name) DEAD!

so now i wonder...issit possible now...if our society system that we actually removed MONEY from it?

what will happened? what is the benefit?

that is a question yet to be answered lo....

till then...

back to blogging again...

now how shall i start after a long period of time not blogging?

hmmm....tell the reasons? (x need cos reasons is useless somehow)

or should i start wit something weird thoughts in my mind? (this gonna scare ppl...lol)

so....

share watever going thru my mind nw...

facebook....

scrolling down facebook...looking thru fren's status...(ya...even those in chinese...)

(no offence its the fact) a lot of them mentioned their problem, or something disappointed ah or something they are piss off in their life....

even some may felt so sad..they even mentioned they wanna cry or felt hopeless

*now this is not for shooting ppl but hopefully this will HELP la*

wonder why all this happened to you or ppl around u?

no its not karma nor its unfortunate

but it is something that meant to happen

why le?

why must we suffer, why we must lost something or why must we faced disappointment?

hard to answer it with all the facts and shit...(pls x make me start with research journals ah...)

but what i can tell is based on my personal experiences and observations...

my answer is...

we all need to experience such a negative situation in order to get the positive one...

now u see this example...

albert einstein, u think in his childhood life, he got his geniuses from genetic or miracle ah? definitely not!

when he was young, he was insulted he was considered stupid he was considered retarded everything regarding education was taken away from him...although his interest in studies was so strong...

and how he ended being so smart? well it is his experience tells him to struggle for knowledge and struggle he was,, until he finally achieved it!

ok not only Albert einstein, we can also take example of Sandra bullock

we all know how she looks like and wat is she famous for; popular actress...but did u know when she was young she was bullied because she was UGLY?

however u also need to perceive the negative experiences as something positive or beneficial to u...

why? if u kept crying over the spilled milk...u think the milk will go back into the carton? of course not....u need to make a move right here right now...n move on...

ya...it might be easier said than done...but if u say this to urself u will have this imprinted thoughts inside urself makes u stand up from the fall n move on....n its ok..if u takes time to change this habit...cos it took me 10 years in mastering it...

not only positive mind...u also need to equipped urself with a logical rational mind...

why le? hundreds of successful ppl are not superstitious (n it is different than having a faithful religion)....

i und it has being a backbone of a person to be superstitious but if skin can be shed off or hair can grow into different type...why not ur mindset?

superstition not only inhibit ur positive development of ur mind...but it also poison ur thoughts....

for instance, in 31st december 1999 they said, y2k thingy is going to destroy the earth the whole earth will be in danger will be in chaos....

until some businessman sold off his properties stocks n all he would ever had...jus to hide underground for such an irrational superstitious...could u believe that?!

then 12.00am 1 january 2000...not a single shit happened...everything still on everything still the same except for the news informing us some ppl did something stupid in their life....

so

should i care about the so called "the fiercest hungry ghost festival this year?"

pls...x make it sounds so bad...i need to make sure my grandfather had his feast also (that is if i am taoist or buddhist)....

n x worry bout the rest...do u knw there's a guardian watching over them?

SO THOSE WHO SIMPLY SPREAD STOP IT IMMEDIATELY, hungry ghost is a good thing not something to be scare off....

i think thats all la...

but to remind u all again....

I AM NOT SHOOTING ANYONE NOR INSULTING ANYONE HERE....I AM JUST TRYING TO SHARE THE THOUGHTS IN MY MIND...HOPING IT WILL HELP INSTEAD OF OFFENDING U....

woah...do i need to do tat everytime? where's the FREEDOM OF SPEECH?

till then....

jus remember...consider ur life is like playing american football....u just got to push it one at a time...fall down or got pwned...nvm..u can still get it up again...n continue pushing through the lines until u reach the goal!

WUSSHHH!!!

In The Memory of My Dog, Pui Pui...

i woke up at around 10am due to my stupid dream which i x bear it...n i wish not to publish about it...

so thinking it positively i told myself it just a dream nothing else more than tat its not even solid or real....

then i avoid recalling back, so i do some house chores....cleaning sweeping moping.....

halfway thru my chores i called out "pui pui" ( the name i called for my dog) several times n he didn't respond so i was thinking lik maybe he is having fun outside there so x disturb him lo...

let him be....cos i wish my dog to enjoy its freedom n happiness to the max before i even let it go when i go back hometown for my industrial training...

so i done with my house chores...thinking why not i make myself some coffee to stay awake from tat horrible dream...

as i was boiling the water, i was trying to give my dog another call since i kinda miss him d...i honestly do likes the mischievous face of his n how he chase me round n round...or licking my leg everytime i go out from the house....

so i was calling n calling like hell...none stop...

then i wonder why issit my dog is not responding...even if i tried to the loudest voice ever i can make...

fyi i actually yelled lik a mad guy from the neighbourhood...

its impossible, cos he will always respond to my call.....

yet my dog x responding to it....

starting to worry bout him d...

i went out to look for him lo....

mana tahu, when i turned my head to right at the gate there....

i saw my dog lying there stiff n still

n his head was cover by the dustbin....

dunno why he did tat....

he is not breathing somemore for an active dog lik him....

without hesitation, i lift the dustbin up

n saw his face...

HE IS DEAD...

n i dunno wat to say or respond to it...or should i get angry or should i cried over it...

imagine i raised him up since he haven't even open his eyes yet...

even early in the morning while he is still a puppy, i feed it wit milk n make sure he is asleep then i quietly went back in the house...continue my studies....

haiz....n now it is dead just like tat...

so my logic sense came back to me when one of my nice neighbour called me out...

n guess what she said....

ur dog dead already

n i said i knw

she added in saying that the last time my dog was beaten up like hell by my FUCK UP neighbour aka BITCH BY BIRTH (her parents are alike tats why)

how he is beaten up?

that time i was out playing basketball n futsal wit baron n iskandar...

n she said she witness pui pui kena tied by the BITCH n using method rod whacking my dog at the leg few times till it got fractured.....n so my dog escaped it like hell desperately to the nice indian neighbour.....n thanks to them they took care of him for a while...

which when i got back i saw pui pui limping like hell n his leg was lik in "L" shape against its body...imaging THAT!

even i beat him up not till like this...n why i beat him up? base on my experience of having 6 different dogs, it actually makes my dog tougher n stronger fast then any dog....so tat once i release it he could rule the street...n have family of his own....n guess what his body size boom like super fast n his teeth got long very fast so do i need to say more?

NOT TO MENTION IT ONLY HAPPENED LIKE FEW DAYS AGO....

so i felt so guilty for him n sad...i tied him up fed it wit all the calsium i can get....

then yesterday, i can see some full recovery of him...he can jump up n down lik he used to...

like i said, to make sure my dog enjoy its freedom to the max...i released him...

n he was so happy he run around non-stop as if he never out for ages....

deep in my heart i was so happy for him...

BUT UNTIL THIS MORNING....

HE IS DEAD...

n in my facebook....

why did i said thanks to my FUCKING NEIGBOUR?

well...as i am writing this blog....another neighbour of mine came n chat wit me...telling me he witness something...

that HE GOT RAN OVER BY A CAR IN A SUDDEN ACCELERATION

not to be AMOK after hearing this...

i think of the situation logically.....n reasonable...

n it seems like the neighbour son always speed up his car whenever he started his engine....STUPID TYPICAL AH BENG!

so i sort of manipulate the conversation with him...n the neighbor admit that

YES IT WAS THE NEIGHBOUR SON WHO HIT IT N RUN AWAY....THEN THE PARENTS THREW THE DOG IN FRONT OF MY GATE JUST LIKE TAT WITHOUT ANY SENSE OF SOUL...

i wonder how could the MOTHER BITCH did that while she had a poodle for her own.?

haiz....enough is enough...my dog is dead....n i tried to cry but i CAN'T!

i jus wanna say that after this happened it seems like everything around me is fading away

losing a good fren because of being too materialistic...losing a fren because of me being honest n straight forward (takkan u want me to lie n be hypocrite?) then now MY DOG....

is this some kind of message...everyone i knw, i talk to, i have fun with, n i helped

GONE JUST LIKE THAT?

*sigh

just wish my dog will rest in peace thats all...i knw some may think n said "it just a dog n derek got emo for wat?"

all i can say, is to be in my shoe thats all...

FUCK MY CURRENT LIFE....

hope there will not be another case like this happened to me....

yes i may not sob or cry over my dog...but please understand that as i am writing this blog my heart is crying like hell with scar appearing on the surface of my heart...

a moment with my dog.....

this is pui pui after had his weekly bath...so winnie hugged him n sayang him...n he responded this love by kissing her....

n would u agree such a dog deserve this kind of punishment?

i just wish his soul will be happy forever thats all....

n thanks pui pui for cheering me up when i was down sometimes...i will remember u always....

Miss UAPP 2034 Abnormal Psychology cheated on me....

it started like this...

Me: Miss ABN why do u wanna cheat on me ah? i tot we had a great time....

MISS ABN: hng~ this is because u had the moment with MISS STATSII before me. i felt so hurt le

Me: I X HELP IT MA I MEAN MISS STATSII GOT MORE CHEMICAL LE...

miss ABN : I X CARE I AM LEAVING U NOW HNG~

i was drop down so emo crying wu wu wu~

then!

Miss STATS2: owh come on babe~ i know u're upset but i x know how to cheer you up...but i knw one thing u will not resist....come babe~

hahhaha enough said lol...

i bet those of u who read it x understand a shit bout it lo...to not talk like schizo...its like this...when i was reading like hell so into it...but eventually my mind turn blank...i have no idea wat happen and why....

was so fuck up then...i even got scare by statistic2 so i started reading and practice it longer than abnormal psychology....haiz....then study smart for it...

eventually it all got blank i was like fuck wei...how come i knw how to answer seems like a pitch black hole to me one....x dig anythin out....

haiz...nvm...

so i will learn the lesson and fight for another time lo...and concentrate further on STATs 2 lol...(which i am not suppose to blog now lol...cos tomolo is the exam d...thurday haiz...)

nvm...

then trying to get out from the place asap also cannot u see la...

well after the fuck up situation...

thanks to carine, we were pick up by her and we're heading home....if not ah...woah scourging sun le....

then le..something exciting happen lo....

kena stopped by so called "police" to saman lo....

and here at the policemen...

eh x play play ah undercover police ah

then what are the saman le?

is to eat chendol with them at the roadside lol...jk hahahha

no la it is i willing to stop by to eat wit them one lo...lol...

and more to come....

guess who is the one riding the bike? lol....

lol....had quite a fun moment la...lol..enjoy a bowl of this chendol (ok ok only la) lol...

haiz...ok la...need to continue my stats 2

owh no...kena ajak keluar sekarang lol....yamcha!!!!!!

but a little

moment of us together, miss abnormal lol...

eh ignore the ugly handwriting ah k...damn fucking ugly i knw lol....but the beauty is remain on the abnormal psychology question lol...

i think i am a bit abnormal d hahahhah

k la till then