The self-disclosure......

FIRST!

i would like to share to u all the reader, is the reason why i am WORKING NOW AT GO GOSSIP CAFE....(to clarify at some point for there's some "abnormal beh." happening around me now....)

but i would lik to say thanks to all those who support me working while studying (u know who u r! lol...)

especially my parents...

now in this unfiltered air of rumors, i can hear that:

1.I am working now because I am poor now!
2.I am working now because I am a big spender!! spent all the money i had...
3.I am working because I have no hope in my studies...
4. I am working because my family x support me at all...
5. I am working because I am lonely, no one wanna ask me out to do here and there....or hang out...I am a poor-hopeless-kind-of-son whom ask pity from PEOPLE AROUND ME TO AVOID MIXING WITH ME!!!

now this is what i called it SO-CALLED-ASSUMPTIONS of me or in other words--->BULLSHIT PLEASE!!!

had u all not know my background at the very beginning?

so nvm, i am going to make it clear and stop this WRONG-ASSUMPTION-CONFORMITY! which comes from the typical situation that usually collectivists do....

ok so here is my point to let u all know why i am working....

1. I am working now because not because i am poor...but guys out there, have u ever try to do something what grown ups should be familiar of? INDEPENDENT? ...so independent is what i am trying to do now...u x always count on ur parents 24/7 come on, our parents need their own time off ok instead we gives them shelter is what we should do, not them....thats the purpose of the key when u get 21YEARS OLD!!!

2. As someone told me that i am a FUCKING BIG SPENDER! have u not look at the amount of money that i spent for a month? the budget? of me for a month....if u x read it, u x say it...thats what we all said before...so keep this in mind, seeing is believing... not listening is believing ok?

3.Some ppl behave in the way as if i am a hopeless person in studies like i am some kind of hooligans in school who failed his subject for the whole 3 SEMESTER! one question...have u not realise that i am still studying? have u not realise the frequent of me asking question in class ( of course u need the previous knowledge to capable of asking the question..) and for the CGPA---->FIND OUT YOURSELF AND U WILL BLOW UR EYEBALLS AND EARS OFF UR HEAD!!!

4.my parents is the one who gives me the UNDIVIDED LOVE to us( me and my brothers) yet they x expect us but make sure we are in good health and condition....not to mention they are my GREATEST TEACHER of all....so do i need to say more?

5.now this is something i wanna tell u all....my personality is the extrovert type and straight forward and i am keen in helping anyone comes in the way... some ppl call me party animal or party dog... so do u think i am a loner? maybe perhaps its a SOCIETY NORM STEREOTYPING that those coursemate who works means he or she is a loner....You got it all wrong! the reason i work is that i x sit on a chair for an hour...so what do u think i am? somemore i am waitering...not sitting down...not to mention its an exercise for me...due to uncertain ajak sana sini sports activity....(man...not like old times). another one is, i x need u guys pity! i am fulfiled with all the loves from my family and my frens...why do i need this kind of pity? i am well being, i am adventurous person!!!

and speaking of me being adventurous person, do u know that i am a type of person who dares and willing to try something new? for what reason?

experience!

why would u stuck urself in one life lane while u got legs to move whereabout?

and thats the reason why company's recruitment seeking for years of experience of future employee although x really all specified the type of experience.... they jus said experience...

so now as u see who is the one who rugi? me or the one RUMOR SPREADER?

and yes its a CULTURE SHOCK to me also....

this is so materialistic!!! back to my hometown....to be frank...my frens who saw me or knew i am working respect or please to me for i am earning money for myself and why here is so much different? see it differently? so thats why i called it CULTURE SHOCK to me....

so once again the RUMOR SPREADER!!!! SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!

i am doing anything i like...so why u care so much?

I AM DEREK! I AM NOT YOU! <---message to all those who being conform by the RUMOR SPREADER!!! so jus pass on the message by copy and paste la....

till then ppl.....

"never judge the book by the cover, great books seldom comes with good cover but great content!"

my favourite songs....

I guess its obvious that its "Green Day With the 'American Idiot' Cast, '21 Guns'".....

TOO OBVIOUS FOR HUIXIN AND AI LING!!!!

x worry i still and i think i will listen to the other song as well, if not ppl will think i too crazy or addicted to just one song...

fyi...my ringtone is not this...so i am still in the safe zone lol....

and the following is the lyrics...(i hope i could know how to upload the songs here lol...)

oh ya before that the this are the songwriters ( have to mention them cos it's their contribution ma...);

Armstrong,
Billie Joe
Bowie,
David;
Pritchard,
Michael;
Wright,
Frank E.,
Iii

and the following is the lyrics....(finally!!!! lol..)

Do you know what's worth fighting for,
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

FOR ME this songs is kinda gives a MESSAGES to ppl....TO STOP FIGHTING each other...
and whats worth if u kept fighting

what will be the outcome? in the end either one of the party will end up bad consequences...
although the winner may seems like enjoy their promising comfort..

will they if the grudge hold on by other against the winner still persist or i shall say will?

so i guess maybe this songs (for local la...here in malaysia) should be listen by those fanatics group who thinks ARSON is the only solution...

oh ya the grade!!!

grade ah, er....; 7/10 lo....

why? cos the musics for me is somehow simple and typical of green days'....but the 7 solidly goes to the lyrics (especially!!! the lyrics) and perhaps the singer the way how they sang it...not bad oh...this ppl....i wonder where they got their talent? lol....

anyway till then ppl...

i need to sleep now lo hahahha.....

DEDICATED to ALL MALAYSIANS, due to the current situation ( i bet u all knw wat i meant)....

The Bad movie ever for 2009

as i was pps-ing i came across a movie and the title quite interesting

so out of my curiosity i gave it a shot...

and haiz....its another so called Eurocentric propaganda bullying asian traditional culture...

haiz....this fanatic group of activist really x put their mind in the term called toleration...

and guess what the movie is

THE COVE.....

yeah yeah won the award...but hell...its a media bias kind of thing....

and wats my rate for this movie?

3.7/10 <---3.7 for their art of filming

but shit hell....what the hell is wrong....ngien ngien (insists) wanna go against show to the world with loudspeaker big bombastic....

and never rest until they get wat they demand....

and wats the result of this such and act?

they got ppl view them as wannabe-swagger-act-cool

how could they not even consider the japanese traditional culture i said TRADITIONAL...ok if then its so their right to go against it then....

the japanese have the right to go against one of their famous steak with all this oily shit kind of thing....p/s: oily food cause heart attacks and it is the world no.1 killer (i still like it occasionally lol....)

my goodness...this movie is so BIAS I MEAN MEDIA BIAS!!!!

this media ppl are trying to do the same thing all over again to what they report bout belated michael jackson story...

at the BEGINNING, tell how bad michael jackson is....makes him looks lik a monster to the public eyes and thoughts...then when he died, wah exposed here and there the goodness thing of michael jackson that had not mention to the public and explained to public why he need to undergo such surgery before that makes me my childhood tot..he is ashamed of himself as a negro!!!!

are they trying to be this insulting again like wat they did before....lik not respecting other culture...dunno where but i could recall in history...that its an obligation to enter to the temple not wearing any footwear...but to this fanatics they disagree...and wat happen to them?

ah so KESI, saying goodness of one country when that country is helping them...for instance China! wah...at the beginning u could see how si be lan ah try to oppose the culture practice by them..then when China bloom into the world trade...here and there programnes say all the good things about the country....

my GOODNESS....

why cant they be tolerate bout it? for instance...yes whale is extinct...but do they ever got the thing called plan B? if its hard to remove...then my suggestion is u suggest to the japanese to farm the whale instead! or find a way to increase the population....

u see how arrogant such fanatics....

WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WRONG WITH THIS FANATICS....

trying to brainwash ppl lik me so that we could be STUPIDLY believe in u....hell no i see things to believe....and i understand better than them....

ok if cows is going to extinct...then they need to bla bla bla bout conserving it....and say bad things consuming this meat...and yes...one of the cow species is extinct...ANY ACTION?

HELL NO!!!

or maybe chicken is going to extinct then they bla bla bout this chicken must be saved and must not be eaten this and that....and show how brutal it is the slaughtering with all the music of horror kind....haiz...

then worse...they will move in to the PLANTS VEGES....ah they will say carrot is going to extinct we need to make documentary...get caught....form a human shield again....and show the brutal of a rabbit eating the carrot...ppl cry for it...also show.....

try to imagine?

so to end this...i like the filming very spontaneous and natural...nice...but hell the bad movie for its story and points said by them...i strongly x lik their style of portraying it...pls be NEUTRAL next time

Haiz....susahnya...

first when i woke up this morning jus to check the result.....

WOOT!!!! hhahahah

it was good la... but its not the main thing that i am going to talk about...

as usual when i woke up i will gone thru the star newspaper lo...(i know sounds so old lol..) then i came across something very disappointing le....me as a malaysian i have to voice up against such an act...yet i understand i am neutral but then this is outrageous to other ppl...

and here is the article (courtesy of the star online) that i came across makes me so disappointing...here's the link (copy and paste it ah...)

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/1/8/nation/5435794&sec=nation

when i read that i was like "oh no" haiz....

then i wonder what will be all the cos of this matter?

well call me naive cos i am not so into politic kind of person...

but my experience tells a lot to me...

could it be the word Allah used by catholics makes them angry and they react this way to them?

do they really deserve such violence? if there's someone inside the church that night what will it happen? Homicide?

so think again...

We as malaysian are known to the world for our MULTICULTURAL SOCIETY and to maintain it means toleration...and with toleration is asking for thinking rationally...

so with toleration along with it, will u ever let one or two words ruin ur Multicultural society status just lik tat?

cannot be right?

i x find it understandable for such an act...cos if u all keep ruin this toleration bond what's issit u're calling for?

think of Bosnia War

think of Nazis act

think of Holocaust

we all majority agrees not to let it happen again...we as malaysian are so good in solving things by ourselves....takkan anda mahu intervention from outsider? it will be lik being DIJAJAH again and we all hate it....

so think again...to avoid such an act we need toleration...i am not hating those who did it...but i am begging to stop such an act before it gone too far...Malaysia is a beautiful country...yet so colourful why do u wanna paint the whole malaysia jus by one color...make it colorful...

and here is an article written by Zaid Ibrahim (explain well enough and clear...)

the following is the link (copy and paste also ah)

http://myzaidibrahim.wordpress.com/2010/01/08/umno-terdesak/

ok the UMNO thing i x really care la...but the point about religion...

so to ensure our life in peace...be humble k?

till then...

"Tolerance implies a GRATUITOUS assumption of the inferiority of other faiths to one's own" by Mahatma Gandhi.

Gran Torino

ok this is my first blog about the movie review lol....(i think i never did tat oh...er...not at all...) nvm i shall blog about it now...thinking perhaps i could jus try something new on my blog lol....well tats me trying out something new all the time lol....(why not?)

and fyi...when i do the review i might also need to relate it to something happening in my daily life...(lame oh?)

the first movie review i gonna do about is Gran Torino staring Clint Eastwood which at the same also produced and directed by him....

whats my personal rating for this movie?( ok this is subject to individual's unique "taste" on the movie so x GO AGAINST ME K? lol....)

well the rating for this movie would be= 9.4 / 10

and what is this movie all about?

er....i not really good in sum up la so i c&c from somewhere else lol....(hey go watch urself i promise u it will never let u down at all lo)...

Walt Kowalski, a retired Polish American Ford factory worker and Korean War veteran, has recently been widowed, which is made further difficult by the generational clash between him and his sons' families. His neighborhood in Highland Park, Michigan, formerly populated by working-class white families, is now dominated by poor Asian immigrants and infested with gang violence.

A Hmong family, the Vang Lors, live next door to Walt, much to his displeasure. Among the family are siblings Sue and Thao. Thao, a shy intelligent teen, is relentlessly pressured by his cousin to join a local gang after they save him from harassment from a Mexican group. Thao eventually agrees to an initiation which requires him to steal Walt's prized car, a 1972 Ford Gran Torino Sport, however he flees after he is confronted by Walt who is armed with his M1 Garand rifle.

After ejecting his oldest son and wife during his birthday celebration, for suggesting that he move to a retirement home, Walt is invited by Soo to a family barbecue where he learns more about Hmong culture. Walt also realizes that he connects better with the Hmong neighbors than his own family. To atone for his attempted theft, Thao works for Walt, who has him carry out odd jobs around the neighborhood. Walt eventually acts as a father figure to Thao, teaching him how to act as a man, giving him relationship advice, and helping him to find a job. Troubled by persistently coughing up blood, Walt goes for a medical checkup and receives results implying that his condition is serious.

Thao is mugged by his cousin's gang. Infuriated, Walt confronts one gang member, beating him and demanding that they leave Thao alone. The gang retaliates with a drive-by shooting on the Vang Lor home, and by beating and raping Soo. Infuriated by the attack on Soo, Walt rushes home and proceeds to punch out pieces of furniture in frustration. After calming down, Walt talks with Father Janovich, who informs Walt the police had left due to the Vang Lors' refusal to talk. Walt states that "Thao and Soo are never going to find peace in this world, as long as that gang is around." Father Janovich admits that, if he were in Thao's situation, he would want vengeance. Walt confides in Father Janovich, telling him that he doesn't know what he's going to do, but what ever it is, "They won't have a chance".

The next day, Thao visits Walt, demanding Walt's help in seeking vengeance upon the gang. Walt agrees with Thao; however, he states that they must remain calm, that careful planning and caution are needed, no mistakes can be made. He asks Thao to return later in the day. In the meantime Walt mows his lawn and gets his hair cut, giving his friend an unusually large tip for a straight shave. After getting a suit fitted, Walt goes to confession, fulfilling one of his wife's final wishes. Father Janovich immediately becomes suspicious, but receives Walt's confession, which consists of only a few petty crimes and injustices. Walt returns home and meets with Thao, giving him his Silver Star. Walt tricks Thao and locks him in the basement, speaking to Thao through a screen door at the top of the basement steps, Walt admits that he does not want Thao to experience the horror of killing, and that he will not be taking Thao with him to the gang's home. He further confesses his most troubling of sins, one he could not confess to Janovich; that he has long harbored guilt for killing a young surrendering soldier during the Korean War. Mean while, Janovich requests police to patrol the gang's home but they withdraw after several hours when no violence occurs.

At night, Walt confronts the gang members outside their home, drawing the attention of neighbors. After receiving the gang's full attention, and making many intimidating remarks and gestures, Walt places a cigarette in his mouth. he asks the gang for a light, and then provocatively reaches into his jacket, causing the members gun him down. Walt is killed holding his 1st Cavalry Division (United States) Zippo lighter in his hand and falls to the ground in a Christ-like pose.

lol...i x good at sum but good at c&c lol...

for this movie it touches on the attitude of this youngsters nowadays...that is so materialistic and desire to seek for fun merely maybe...but when i see this Tom he reminds me the difference of all the typical youngsters....it tells me that not all human are the same or comform to the norms...but u can be different n being different u can get something special instead...never a human would ever dare to be different cos fear being rejected...well to me why not u jus be dare to different and makes the world so much colorful rather than eat shit sleep all the same....hell man...u all are the human with different genes and mind so why not be different.....shit off those who says u r useless or weird at the end they are the one will say "WOW" to u instead of "YUCK"...

it also shows to me the benefit of two different culture Collectivism and Individualistic,

collectivism; benefit= they all concern each other wanna celebrate together, care for each other, never left anyone behind, and not to mention they care for the surrounding to be comfy and joy...while the bad thing is that when there's a trouble involving themselves they jus shut themself up...not even dare to voice out or do anything to fight for their right and safety....

individualistic;benefit= they are the one stands up against fight for their right and protect those who are in need not to mention being easy to social with anyone else around them instead being coward away lo....bad thing, selfish, care for themselves, calls for no respect to their own family member somehow...

so where do i fall in? this i ponder...

well at the same time its show to us that how much we need to appreciate our parents also...for me i do why?

My mom, i appreciate her for showing me a strength that no man ever had...not physically strength but rather mentally and attitude strength to fight and survive ur way through out ur life trouble or maintaining the happiness in urself and be grateful of wat u have now.....x give shit to wat other ppl have...they have it they have la...but when u try hard with the strength my mom shows to me u can get it in no time instead better le....also a will of strength that x easily fall to anyone's insult or degrading of how u r....

My dad, he is the giver of my life, the giver as in the advise he gave me...well when he told me all the advice when i was young... i admit in my mind " what the hell is he talking ?" and yet he will only said this words to me to understand "someday u will know for sure" and yes i know it very sure and clear...that all the advises he gave it to me now and still, all helped me to think as what a real human did...like he once told me also that may seems inlogic that is x go to the waterfall or anywhere got water especially when its raining...i was lik at the beginning "wat the hell its nothng much le jus gain water nia ma" but when one of our belated uni mate killed by the waterfall i now understand very clear....and thats why i said my dad is a giver....gives me all the experience that he holds to me in advance....

so my mom and my dad's strength and givings makes me who i am now...

so thats all for the movie now...i hope u all watch will change urself also cos the movie did change me also.....lol...

till then...

Youa aka YumYum:" You're funny. "

Walt Kowalski: "I've been called a lot of things, but never funny."

Malaysia's living cost...$$$

I guess u all might have seen this mail before and sort of no point to bring it out again la...

but le...its rather gives me something to ponder bout...so as u knw...when there's something to ponder good or bad...still jus x be scare to voice out...(just lik my earlier blog...which sounds so unacceptable but theory is a theory---> http://derekbongchengkiong.blogspot.com/2009/09/human-mammal-and-reptile-in-us.html )

Just in case u all never seen it before this mail.. so by right i should show it to u before i could discuss further....

some part of the picture i cut it off...for the sake of me being NEUTRAL and FEAR OF ISA lol.....

ok now the purpose of blogging bout it is to compare my own personal expenses according to the one showned in the pict... (well its the average of the malaysian citizen incomes so i can still compare with it lol...) this is something lik a check-safe-condition of mine lol...to be sure....

so i guess i will start with the Kampar lifestyle expenses (maybe if i got time will compare it with Miri cos its a city and Kampar is consider a town....)

Kampar living costs (this is the list for a month)

Rent= RM90

Bills (including streamyx ah) = RM50 (ESTIMATED)

Food expenses (veges and all that) = RM 100

Entertainment (do i need to say more? lol...) = RM20

Digi Reload card= RM30

EXTRAS (that is for emergency expenses lo...maybe lik uni reopen need to buy the books) = RM100

TOTAL= RM 390

lol...about ten times less lo.. hahhaha perhaps maybe its because

first, i x drive, i cycle to uni and all the shits i do....

second, i x buy luxurious food to eat...jus veges meats and noodles... thats all.... thanks to tesco(doing penniless advertisement)

third, i have this ways of knowing when and where to buy cheap not to mention how...

fourth, I KEPT TELLING MYSELF I AM GODDAMN POOR KID (yeah its true, ken lol....and kean tat also...) AND MY MAIN PURPOSE HERE IS TO STUDY.....

but then again...if i show the expenses in Miri....owh no....not enough time i need to go to work now lol...ya i am working as a waiter...lol...how poor am i? lol....(nah its still early jus wanna avoid telling bout miri's expenses) lol....

till then ppl....

"other beings than human have their eyes fixed on foods and mates...but we humans have our eyes fixed on MONEY, these are the ironic...)