i woke up at around 10am due to my stupid dream which i x bear it...n i wish not to publish about it...
so thinking it positively i told myself it just a dream nothing else more than tat its not even solid or real....
then i avoid recalling back, so i do some house chores....cleaning sweeping moping.....
halfway thru my chores i called out "pui pui" ( the name i called for my dog) several times n he didn't respond so i was thinking lik maybe he is having fun outside there so x disturb him lo...
let him be....cos i wish my dog to enjoy its freedom n happiness to the max before i even let it go when i go back hometown for my industrial training...
so i done with my house chores...thinking why not i make myself some coffee to stay awake from tat horrible dream...
as i was boiling the water, i was trying to give my dog another call since i kinda miss him d...i honestly do likes the mischievous face of his n how he chase me round n round...or licking my leg everytime i go out from the house....
so i was calling n calling like hell...none stop...
then i wonder why issit my dog is not responding...even if i tried to the loudest voice ever i can make...
fyi i actually yelled lik a mad guy from the neighbourhood...
its impossible, cos he will always respond to my call.....
yet my dog x responding to it....
starting to worry bout him d...
i went out to look for him lo....
mana tahu, when i turned my head to right at the gate there....
i saw my dog lying there stiff n still
n his head was cover by the dustbin....
dunno why he did tat....
he is not breathing somemore for an active dog lik him....
without hesitation, i lift the dustbin up
n saw his face...
HE IS DEAD...
n i dunno wat to say or respond to it...or should i get angry or should i cried over it...
imagine i raised him up since he haven't even open his eyes yet...
even early in the morning while he is still a puppy, i feed it wit milk n make sure he is asleep then i quietly went back in the house...continue my studies....
haiz....n now it is dead just like tat...
so my logic sense came back to me when one of my nice neighbour called me out...
n guess what she said....
ur dog dead already
n i said i knw
she added in saying that the last time my dog was beaten up like hell by my FUCK UP neighbour aka BITCH BY BIRTH (her parents are alike tats why)
how he is beaten up?
that time i was out playing basketball n futsal wit baron n iskandar...
n she said she witness pui pui kena tied by the BITCH n using method rod whacking my dog at the leg few times till it got fractured.....n so my dog escaped it like hell desperately to the nice indian neighbour.....n thanks to them they took care of him for a while...
which when i got back i saw pui pui limping like hell n his leg was lik in "L" shape against its body...imaging THAT!
even i beat him up not till like this...n why i beat him up? base on my experience of having 6 different dogs, it actually makes my dog tougher n stronger fast then any dog....so tat once i release it he could rule the street...n have family of his own....n guess what his body size boom like super fast n his teeth got long very fast so do i need to say more?
NOT TO MENTION IT ONLY HAPPENED LIKE FEW DAYS AGO....
so i felt so guilty for him n sad...i tied him up fed it wit all the calsium i can get....
then yesterday, i can see some full recovery of him...he can jump up n down lik he used to...
like i said, to make sure my dog enjoy its freedom to the max...i released him...
n he was so happy he run around non-stop as if he never out for ages....
deep in my heart i was so happy for him...
BUT UNTIL THIS MORNING....
HE IS DEAD...
n in my facebook....
why did i said thanks to my FUCKING NEIGBOUR?
well...as i am writing this blog....another neighbour of mine came n chat wit me...telling me he witness something...
that HE GOT RAN OVER BY A CAR IN A SUDDEN ACCELERATION
not to be AMOK after hearing this...
i think of the situation logically.....n reasonable...
n it seems like the neighbour son always speed up his car whenever he started his engine....STUPID TYPICAL AH BENG!
so i sort of manipulate the conversation with him...n the neighbor admit that
YES IT WAS THE NEIGHBOUR SON WHO HIT IT N RUN AWAY....THEN THE PARENTS THREW THE DOG IN FRONT OF MY GATE JUST LIKE TAT WITHOUT ANY SENSE OF SOUL...
i wonder how could the MOTHER BITCH did that while she had a poodle for her own.?
haiz....enough is enough...my dog is dead....n i tried to cry but i CAN'T!
i jus wanna say that after this happened it seems like everything around me is fading away
losing a good fren because of being too materialistic...losing a fren because of me being honest n straight forward (takkan u want me to lie n be hypocrite?) then now MY DOG....
is this some kind of message...everyone i knw, i talk to, i have fun with, n i helped
GONE JUST LIKE THAT?
*sigh
just wish my dog will rest in peace thats all...i knw some may think n said "it just a dog n derek got emo for wat?"
all i can say, is to be in my shoe thats all...
FUCK MY CURRENT LIFE....
hope there will not be another case like this happened to me....
yes i may not sob or cry over my dog...but please understand that as i am writing this blog my heart is crying like hell with scar appearing on the surface of my heart...
a moment with my dog.....
this is pui pui after had his weekly bath...so winnie hugged him n sayang him...n he responded this love by kissing her....
n would u agree such a dog deserve this kind of punishment?
i just wish his soul will be happy forever thats all....
n thanks pui pui for cheering me up when i was down sometimes...i will remember u always....
